Sunday, February 21, 2010

Inte alla vackra människor har flickvänner. Några av dem har pojkvänner.

"Hindi lahat ng gwapong lalaki, may girlfriend. Ang iba sa kanila, may boyfriend."

Lately, nagugulat na lang ako sa mga taong nakikilala ko or nakikipagkilala sa akin. Ganun ba talaga kahina gaydar ko?

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Oh well....

Natawa lang ako sa nag-send sa akin ng text na yan... Alam ko luma na yan...

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Hindi ko kamukha si Kim Bum... Please...

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Pojke! (Babyboy!)

HAHAHAHAHA!

Grabe. Since naka-get over na ako kay Nate, lately ko lang na-realize na there are also other guys out there who wants to get to know me.  Well, since I'm also kinda discreet, hindi ako basta basta nakikipagkaibigan sa mga PLU (now I know what PLU means! hahaha). I guess I'd go with straight acting guys talaga. (No offense meant. It's just my preference.) Hehehe. And lately, I have been becoming close to a new friend. Lets call him Pojke.

I was really surprised because I never really knew Pojke before. He was actually a schoolmate. Tapos may common friend pa sa Facebook. I never really expected him to be gay. He told me he is. I just replied "weh?". Kasi naman! Brusko ang dating nya at wala ka talagang mahahalata sa kanya (or mahina lang talaga gaydar ko. ) We started from there, sending messages sa Facebook, texts at tawag. We haven't really met each other yet, but he seems kinda fun to hang around with.

May common thing pa sa aming dalawa. Isa na dito ay we have the same birthday! Same day, same year, same month, same date. You get the picture, ryt? Though higher batch ako sa kanya.

(By the way, ang dami ko nang kakilala na either gay or bisexual na ang birthday ay katulad ng sa akin, or within the week na yun)

(At bakit parang ang mga guys na lumalapit sa akin, laging "C" ang start ng last name?)

Going back...

Si Pojke, like Chuck, ay magaling gumiling, tumambling at kemembot! Hahaha! Parehas ba naman sila ng sinalihang organization nung college eh!

He's good looking. Period. And hot. Another period. (Not to mention, makinis....hihihi) You can search him on Facebook if you want to! Actually, I know that there are a lot of girls after him pero hindi nya na lang daw pinapansin. Babae din daw kasi sya! Hahaha! At ang bilis nya ah! He calls me "bebeboy" agad! I told him adik sya! (syempre, pa-demure muna ako! I just went through a tough experience ah!) I mean, we just met then may nickname na agad siya sa akin! XP

If you'll get to know him, tatawa ka ng tatawa. He wants me to go to his practices but due to my work schedule, I can't go there to our school and visit him. At kapag free naman ako, siya naman ang hindi! He told me that we could meet each other during his midterm exams, para madaming oras para mag-"study" daw sya with me! Gagu itong mokong na ito!

I know that I just met this guy, at eto na naman ako. Ang dali ko kasing maging comfortable sa mga taong nakilala ko pa lang. I told him that I just went through something, though hindi ko sa kanya talaga sinabi ang tungkol kay Nate. But he told me that it would be good for me if I'm gonna meet someone else new. Oh well... Let's see...

I know I'm not yet ready for a new guy, but meeting new friends is not that bad...

Ayan na...

Tumatawag na si Pojke!





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To be continued muna ito.....

I'll edit this entry...maybe tomorrow....

Så Här Avslutar en Härlig Cykel (How to End a Glorious Cycle)

This is how my Valentine's day went. It was all good for me. Well, I guess, finally I got the closure that I wanted. Eventhough Nate wasn't even there, at least, I was able to manage na. This thing called "love" for Nate is, now I know, will last longer kung magkaibigan lang talaga kami.

I was so happy for what happened on the 14th of this year's February. All the realizations came rushing down.

I started my Valentines day, trying to reminisce how it all began and ended. I know what I'm gonna write today is super cheesy but whatever. I don't care. Hahaha!

First I went up to our office's yosi area. I just want to remember what it smells like when Nate is smoking. Of course, naka-ear phones na naman ako at pinapatugtog ko ang song ko para sa kanya. Masaya alalahanin ang nakaraan. Na ang saksi lamang sa aming paglalambingan ay ang mga bangkong gawa sa bakal, usok ng sigarilyo at electric fan na ikot lang ng ikot. Nakaka-miss din pala kahit papaano.

Siguro, isang oras din ako nagpaka-martyr doon. Nang dumami na ang tao, lumabas na ako. Ayokong may makakita sa akin dun. Obvious kaya, kasi hindi naman ako naninigarilyo tapos tambay ako ng yosi area!

After that, I went to the church sa Greenbelt where I threw my ring away. I was supposed to give that ring to him, para maging official na kami nga. Pero hindi naman sya natuloy, pero okay lang din naman na sa akin. Eventhough I'm not Catholic, I prayed in that church. Prayed to God, thanking him for the wonderful blessings that I have been receiving. Thanking him that I loved a person, more than myself. I prayed that God will take care of Nate, help him when he needs it. I prayed that somehow, hindi na masaktan si Nate. I know that Heavenly Father will take care of him. I have realized that if you really love someone, you should support them. In everything that they do. You should always be happy for their choices. The paths that they take. And if the time comes that they will return, your arms should be open for them, ready to take them home. A friend texted me, telling me the difference between infatuation and love. Infatuation is when your special someone left you and you want them back no matter what. Love is when your special someone left you and you are willing to accept their choices, and be happy for them, no matter how much it pains you. True love does exist. I finally know it does.




I kept on telling that he blogged about happiness. Saying that it's all in how you decide over things and think rationally. It was beautiful. As I type this, I know that I still love him. Pero I know that he will be happier with a "king", and not a humble "prince" like me. I guess I'll not be the one who will catch him if he falls. And by the time he found his "king", I will smile, knowing that he will be in good hands. Nate's smart. He can manage. Again, I looked at the pond where I left my ring. For me, though I lost that ring, he will always be here beside me. No more tears. I was smiling. I know I'm happy that I loved Nate. After a few more minutes under the intense sun, I walked away. With my favorite swagger. Hahaha. Should I dare say that I felt like a rock star now that I'm starting to get over him? Hahaha! (nonsense)





After the church, I went back to the ice cream stall where we usually buy....ice cream....(roll your eyes now and say duh) Masarap kumain ng ice cream, lalo na kapag mainit sa labas. After bumili ng ice cream, pinuntahan ko ang mga place sa mall na yun madalas namin pagtaguan para walang makakita na officemate sa amin. Paikot ikot lang ako dun. I have to tire myself out. Pero masaya naman eh. Kasi in my mind, he's walking beside me. Siguro nga may tama ako. Ganun talaga eh. Nung naramdaman kong paubos na ang ice cream ko, I decided to eat at Sbarro, my favorite pizza shop. Puno kasi ang Pizza Hut eh. 



As the night drew nearer, I decided that it was now the time that I should go back to the place where I met a great person. Where we shared our first cups of coffee, eventhough I didn't drink any coffee. Hahaha. Weird. I mean it feels weird that I was there, staring blankly to the chair opposite me. No one's there. It was just me and my cold drink. The air smells familiar. I smell his perfume. I  didn't cry. He wouldn't want to be overly dramatic. Hahaha! Okay. One sip. Two sips. Then think. Third sip. I remember talking to him. Exactly at this spot. How he smiles. The way he talks. The way he smokes. Those were good times. Before we were starting to get serious, I actually prayed to God, na kung hindi kami magtatagal, bigyan nya ako ng sign. (Ang arte ko noh?) Ang sign na hiningi ko ay ulan. Sigh. Ulan lang ang hiniling ko na sign, Ondoy ang dumating. (tsk tsk) Binalaan na din pala ako eh, hindi pa ako nakinig. Hahaha! Anyways, remembering good things, eventhough wala yung person na part ng memory na yun, masaya pa din balikan ang mga times na you were laughing with him, sharing stories. Having personal conversations. Fourth sip. Malapit na pala maubos ang drink ko. Masarap. Hehehe.

I texted Nate the day after Valentine's day. He had a black one pa din daw. Basta, alam nya naman na nandito lang ako for him. I'm happy. And contented. I told him to take care of himself. I knew at that point, I have earned a new bestfriend. Mag-ingat ka pare... Labyu!



Sorry.... Amiga pala!


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Nate and Gaspard's Love Story
Aug. 7, 2009 (Friday at around 9:35am) to Feb.14, 2010 (Sunday at around 8:57pm)



Nate and Gaspard's Friendship
Aug. 7, 2009 (Friday at around 9:35am) onwards....

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Christmas chat... with Nate and Chuck... (Part Two)

Warning. This entry will contain words that might offend some of you. If you're kinda naughty and horny (and into guy on guy action), then go ahead and read.

Again, I don't know why I'm posting this.

Maybe for remembrance lang?
During the times I'm having fun. . . with Chuck . . .



Show Recent Messages (F3)

Chuck: online?
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard:
Chuck: musta?
Gaspard: eto
Gaspard: kain ng kain
Gaspard: pero di naman tumataba
Gaspard: hehehehe
Gaspard: kaw?
Chuck: uhm
Chuck: kumakain
Chuck: puro fastfood nga eh
Chuck:
Chuck: not good for me
Chuck: tulog si “Chuck’s partner”
Chuck: pagod
Gaspard: awww
Gaspard: we should stop na
Gaspard:
Chuck: huh?
Gaspard: i feel guilty
Gaspard:
Gaspard: i dont want to hurt anyone
BUZZ!!!
Chuck:
Gaspard: please
Gaspard: the farthest we can go
Gaspard: is being friends
Gaspard: please
Gaspard: im thinking about what to do
Gaspard: and i think this is the right thing to do
Gaspard: u there?
Chuck: yeah
Gaspard: its hard for me na
Gaspard:
Gaspard: i know im gonna miss u badly
Chuck: okay
Chuck: i thought you were okay with playing around with me
Gaspard: i was
Gaspard: paano kapag nabuko tayo?
Gaspard:
Gaspard: masyado high ang risks nating dalawa
Gaspard: we should stop this
Gaspard: before maging serious
Chuck: fair
Chuck: sure
Chuck: should i stop talking with you completely?
Chuck: “Chuck’s partner”'s okay with us being friends
Gaspard: okay
Gaspard: friends
Gaspard:
Chuck: at dahil jan
Gaspard: as in friends
Chuck: iiinvite kita icheck webcam ko
Chuck:
Gaspard: adik ka
Chuck: hehe
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck: ang latent nya
Gaspard: para kang bata
Gaspard:
Chuck: ang hirap nga eh
Chuck: wala pa kami computer table dito
Chuck: so i'm on the floor infront of the tv
Gaspard: talaga?
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: so kamusta ka naman, "friend"?
Chuck: ayos lang
Chuck: naghahanap ng kakulitan
Gaspard: hahahaha
Gaspard: ako?
Gaspard: hahah
Chuck: ikaw?
Chuck: nope...
Chuck:
Gaspard: good
Gaspard: hehehehe
Chuck: much to my dismay
Chuck:
Gaspard: haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay
Chuck: tinext kita di ka naman reply
Chuck:
Gaspard: kasi baka may mangyari pa
Gaspard: na di natin magustuhan
Gaspard: umiiwas na ako
Gaspard:
Chuck: pano pag di kita tinantanan?
Chuck:
Chuck:
Gaspard: baka bumigay ako
Gaspard: seryoso ako Chuck
Gaspard:
Chuck: natuwa na nga ako sa pending deal natin eh
Chuck: one-day special
Gaspard: hhahaahhahaa
Gaspard: so u still want to do it?
Chuck: yeah
Gaspard: are u sure?
Chuck: yeah
Chuck: just need to figure out when
Chuck: and where we could hang out
Gaspard: yeah?
Chuck: yup
Chuck: but i'd very much like to spend more time with you
Gaspard: hoy
Gaspard: remember “CHUCK’S PARTNER”
Gaspard:
Chuck: yeah
Chuck: i know
Chuck: he's #1
Chuck: but i'd very much like to spend more time with you
Gaspard: please
Gaspard:
Gaspard: hindi ka ba natatakot?
Chuck: honestly?
Chuck: oo
Gaspard: haay
Gaspard: we're in a tight situation eh
Gaspard: madami nakakakilala sa atin
Gaspard: omg
Gaspard: so kung sakali pala
Gaspard: we're like fubus
Chuck: fubus
Chuck: wow
Chuck: seems like  you're happy about that
Chuck:
Chuck: amused the least
Chuck: hehe
Chuck: my back aches...
Chuck:
Chuck: uy
Chuck: joke lang yung fubu thing...
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: u there?
Chuck: yep
Chuck: Gaspard
Gaspard: what?
Gaspard:
Chuck: nothing
Chuck:
Chuck: pakiss
Gaspard: saan?
Chuck: sa left cheek
Chuck:
Gaspard: go ahead "friend"
Gaspard: "friendly kiss" lang naman pala eh
Gaspard: nagloloko ba yung YM ko?
Chuck: oo
Chuck: finoforward ata kay “Chuck’s partner” lahat ng messages...
Gaspard: weh
Gaspard: di nga?
Gaspard: haha
Chuck: o
Gaspard: nagsa-sign off ba ako?
Chuck: handa mo na resignation letter mo...
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck: nope
Gaspard: huy
Chuck: what?
Gaspard: haaaaaaaaaaaay
Chuck: don't tell me tutulugan mo na ako
Gaspard: hindi
Gaspard: hindi ko kaya
Chuck: ???
Gaspard: di ako makakatulog
Gaspard: kasi kausap pa kita
Chuck: yihee
Chuck: friend ano ka ba
Chuck: cheezy mo naman!
Chuck:
Gaspard: oo nga friend eh
Chuck: gusto na ba matulog ni Gaspard?
Gaspard: ayaw pa
Gaspard: ikaw?
Chuck: nope
Chuck: hindi ko kaya
Chuck: kausap pa kita eh
Gaspard: cheesy mo friend
Gaspard: hahah
Gaspard: seriously
Gaspard: Chuck
Gaspard: ?
Chuck: yeah
Chuck: not sleepy yet
Gaspard: can we honestly say na we're just friends?
Chuck: nope
Gaspard: ang laking scandal nito
Chuck: i think you're thinking too much
Gaspard: mali ang ginagawa natin eh
Chuck: argh
Chuck: fine
Gaspard: galit ka ba?
Chuck: nope
Gaspard: i want to kiss you
Gaspard:
Chuck: kiss lang?
Chuck: hug?
Gaspard: sige pati hug
Chuck: kiss me because?:
Gaspard: bcs i want to
Chuck: i want to own you too
Chuck: i'm being selfish
Chuck: sorry
Chuck: you've been telling me repeatedly to stop
Chuck: i'm insensitive
Gaspard: haaaaaaaaay
Gaspard: ayun nga eh
Gaspard: we cant stop each other
Chuck: i want to stay with “Chuck’s partner” longer
Chuck: pero i want to play around with you too
Chuck: and feeling ko i might start getting possesive w/ you na rin
Chuck: super unfair
Chuck: you should really be hating me right now
Gaspard: i should be
Gaspard: but i cant
Chuck: when you think about it
Chuck: we really don't know a whole lot about each other
Chuck: i don't even know what happened with you and Nate
Chuck: i'll take the reins on this one na lang Gaspard
Chuck: i'll take charge in making sure this stops
Chuck:
Chuck: sorry
Gaspard: good
Gaspard: when will that happen?
Chuck: cut off
Chuck:
Chuck: i honestly can't stay as friends lang with you
Chuck: i'll end up flirting
Chuck: so...
Chuck: if it's okay
Chuck: let's just stop communicating
Chuck:
Gaspard:
Gaspard: Chuck?
Chuck: yep?
Gaspard: haaay
Gaspard: just one more day
Gaspard: . . .
Chuck: hmmm
Chuck: again i'll take the reins Gaspard
Chuck: yaan na lang natin
Chuck: you're a cute guy
Gaspard: haaay
Gaspard: sige po
Gaspard: i'll miss you
Gaspard:
Chuck: same here
Chuck: i'll try my best not to get jealous when i start hearing about new people you've been going out with
Chuck:
Chuck: mwah
Gaspard: and i'll try my best not to get jealous when i see u and “Chuck’s partner” together
Chuck:
Chuck: ingat ka ha
Gaspard: wait
Chuck: ???
Gaspard: so this will be the last time we'll talk?
Chuck: for a while
Chuck: probably
Chuck: unless you'll need something from me
Gaspard: i want to own you. . .
Chuck: why?
Gaspard: i dunno
Gaspard: bcs im falling for u?
Chuck: why?
Chuck: hmmm
Chuck: well
Gaspard: haaay
Gaspard: its hard to explain
Chuck: i liked the idea of playing around with you kasi i felt comfortable with you
Chuck: and i thought you were kinda cute over time
Gaspard: i want to "play" with u nga eh
Chuck: are you falling for me
Chuck: ?
Gaspard: obviously
Chuck: you want to play with me?
Chuck: or are you falling?
Gaspard: falling
Chuck: at most i think you're just infatuated...
Chuck: hmmm
Gaspard: thats the problem
Gaspard: i cant tell
Chuck: we know that won't go anywhere...
Gaspard: haaaaaaaaaay
Chuck: Gaspard
Chuck: honestlky
Chuck: never ka ba nagkaron ng relationship ever with a guy?
Gaspard: never
Gaspard: u there?
Chuck has signed back in. (12/25/2009 10:24 PM)

Chuck: never...
Chuck: what do you want Gaspard?
Chuck: logged out?
Gaspard: nope
Chuck: you still want to talk?
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: kelan pasok nyo?
Chuck: monday
Chuck: kaw?
Gaspard: tomorrow night
Chuck: question
Chuck: aside from me and Nate
Chuck: who else are you kinda interested in right now?
Gaspard: none
Gaspard: kaw?
Chuck: no crushes on the floor?
Gaspard: uhm
Gaspard: her name's *******
Gaspard:
Gaspard: pero she has a kid na eh
Gaspard: may mga nagte-tetxt sa akin na di ko kilala
Gaspard: pero di ko pinapansin
Gaspard: minsan may mga tumatawag din
Gaspard: hahhaa
Chuck:
Chuck: why do you want to play around with me?
Gaspard: bcs i like u
Chuck: why?
Gaspard: why do u want to play around with me?
Gaspard: bcs ure a good guy
Gaspard: and u listended to me
Gaspard: and u're making me happy
Gaspard: eventhough lagi na lang
Gaspard: negative energy ung nabibigay ko sayo
Gaspard: ure risking things that are far too great
Chuck: why am I a good guy?
Gaspard: bcs i see through u
Gaspard: kapag naaasar ka sa akin
Gaspard: sinasabi mo
Gaspard: kapag natatawa ka
Gaspard: sinasabi mo
Gaspard: its like i've known u
Gaspard: for a long time na nga eh
Gaspard: or ganun lang ba talaga ako?
Chuck: what do you mean?
Chuck: kung talagang natural sayo to feel na you've known someone matagal na kahit hindi pa masyado?
Chuck: ?
Gaspard: yup
Chuck: ako i think i need to get to know you more
Chuck: pero i get your point
Chuck: is that the only reason why you think i'm a good guy?
Gaspard: i just feel like ur a good guy
Gaspard: and usually im right
Chuck: was Nate a good guy?
Gaspard: yes
Gaspard: bakit?
Gaspard: crush mo na din sya?
Gaspard:
Chuck: eck
Chuck: no
Chuck:
Chuck: but would you go after me if Nate were still interested in you?
Gaspard: yeah
Chuck: so you like me more than you like Nate?
Gaspard: i like Nate more than you
Gaspard: just like how “Chuck’s partner” is ur #1
Chuck:
Chuck: okay
Gaspard: why?
Chuck: nothing
Chuck: just trying to understand things better
Gaspard: if u didnt break up with “Chuck’s partner”
Gaspard: would u consider
Gaspard: hanging out with me
Gaspard: ?
Chuck: probably no...
Chuck: but that's not because i wouldn't find you interesting
Chuck: ganun lang talaga ako
Chuck: if i'm with someone
Chuck: i'm usually around that person as in almost all waking hours
Gaspard: aaaaaah
Gaspard: so nung nawala sya ng isang buwan,
Gaspard: ako nakita mo?
Gaspard:
Chuck: i guess
Chuck: just thought of adding you up in facebook
Chuck: make fun of you kasi nagmodel modelan ka
Chuck: haha
Chuck: then we talked more
Gaspard: and flirted
Chuck: yep
Gaspard: haaay
Chuck: will it break your heart if we stopped talking?
Gaspard: kinda
Chuck: hmmm
Chuck: i don't think it would break your heart, Gaspard
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: thats good to know
Chuck: interesting:
Chuck: http://www.ted.com/talks/rebecca_saxe_how_brains_make_moral_judgments.html
Gaspard: reading. .  .
Gaspard: hehe
Chuck: huh?
Gaspard: yung link
Gaspard: haha
Chuck: reading?
Chuck: it's a video
Gaspard: wala eh
Gaspard: ahhh
Gaspard: there
Gaspard: meron na
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: paano yan?
Gaspard: robot ka!
Chuck: watch through it
Chuck:
Gaspard: nerd ung speaker
Gaspard: hehe
Chuck: i think she's cute
Chuck:
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: ang haba
Gaspard:
Chuck:
Chuck: zzzzzz....
Gaspard: inaantok na ako
Gaspard: hahah
Chuck: Worth watching through it
Gaspard: ano ending?
Gaspard: hehehe
BUZZ!!!
Chuck: I won't tell
Chuck: P
Gaspard: please
Gaspard:
Chuck: i won't tolerate laziness
Chuck: done
Chuck: sorry
Chuck: i'm nerd
Chuck: if you haven't noticed
Chuck:
Gaspard: duh
Chuck: sooo...
Chuck: tulog ka na?>
Chuck:
Gaspard: opo
Gaspard: english ba yun?
Gaspard: russian yata eh
Chuck: hidni
Gaspard: hindi ko na sila maintindihan
Chuck: mongolian
Gaspard: russian ang language sa mongolia
Chuck: seriously?>
Gaspard: uhm
Gaspard: international studies po ako
Gaspard: dapat alam ko din kung saang part ang
Chuck: bakit kaya yun pumasok sa isip ko...
Gaspard: mga languages
Chuck: anyway
Chuck: i take it you're not into stuff like that
Gaspard: yeah
Chuck: i listen to podcasts from that site when I work out
Chuck:
Chuck: work the mind
Chuck: work the body
Chuck: haha
Gaspard: nerd
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: im done na
Gaspard: hindi ko naintindihan
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck:
Chuck: cute cute mo
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: so ano nga?
Chuck: ano what?
Chuck: ending?
Gaspard: opo
Chuck: well
Chuck: ending nya is they were evaluating yung possible implications ng results ng study nya
Chuck: about how to change people's minds
Gaspard: which is?
Gaspard: ah
Gaspard: so?
Chuck: at one part of the talk
Chuck: she talked about doing a study na na subject yung mga participants sa machine na nilalagay sa ulo to send magnetic waves through the brain
Chuck: and it proved na na-aaffect nga yung judgement nila because of that magnetic impulse sa brain
Chuck: galing galing
Gaspard: yawn. . .
Chuck: grrr
Chuck: halikan kita jan eh
Gaspard:
Gaspard: adik!
Chuck: joke
Chuck: i'm taking the reins
Chuck:
Gaspard: ayan ka na naman eh
Gaspard: hahah
Chuck: nakakawala yung kabayo!!!
Gaspard: hahahahahahaha
Gaspard: and does it feel good kapag nakakawala yung kabayo?
Gaspard: hahah
Chuck: yeah
Chuck: pero my answer is NO
Chuck:
Gaspard: thats good
Gaspard: haaaaaaaaaay
Chuck: hey
Chuck: here's one thing that will seal the deal
Chuck: Gaspard
Chuck: hay ka jan
Chuck: ready ka na ba sa itatanong ko?
Gaspard: ready
Gaspard: kinakabahan naman ako
Chuck: game
Chuck: this is ultimately sensitive
Chuck: and again
Chuck: this is one thing that will most probably seal the deal
Chuck: Gaspard,
Chuck: if we ended up having an affair
Chuck: and we go to bed
Chuck: will you let me do what I usually do to my partner?
Gaspard: which is?
Chuck: i'm always the guy in the relationship kasi
Chuck: so it kinda follows that i'm the guy in bed too
Chuck: answer now...
Gaspard: uhm
Gaspard: pwde
Gaspard: ?
Gaspard: if it hurts
Gaspard: then no
Gaspard: im also a guy eh
Chuck: wrong answer
Chuck: you just made it more difficult!!!
Gaspard: huh?
Gaspard: what?
Chuck: so you'll let me try it, if ever?
Gaspard: maybe?
Chuck: hayyyy
Gaspard: if i did it
Gaspard: will u let me do it to u too?
Chuck: not used to it
Chuck: but i guess
Chuck: basta ikaw mauuna
Chuck: argh!
Chuck: wrong wrong wrong!
Gaspard: are u turned on?
Chuck: uhm
Chuck: ok lang
Gaspard:
Chuck: pero kasi if you would have said no
Chuck: it's easier to make a decision to let you go in peace
Gaspard: ahhh
Gaspard: soo. . .
Chuck: i can't imagine you having this conversation with Nate...
Gaspard: hahahaa
Chuck:
Gaspard: so
Gaspard: what are we gonna do?
Chuck: ditto!
Gaspard: haaay
Gaspard: are we gonna do it?
Chuck:
Chuck: are we gonna do it?
Chuck: let's not
Chuck: no
Chuck: we won't
Chuck:
Gaspard: hahahah
Gaspard: promise?
Chuck: yeah
Chuck: siguro occassional fantasy ko na lang yun
Chuck: breeding you
Gaspard:
Chuck: shox
Chuck: yung kabayo!
Gaspard: hahahaha
Gaspard: nakatakas na?
Chuck: nope
Chuck: i've taken the reins again
Chuck:
Gaspard: if we were to do it, will you "go down" on me?
Gaspard:
Chuck: i think that's a given naman...
Gaspard: hahahahahahaha
Gaspard: omg
Chuck: what?
Gaspard: sorry
Gaspard: my imagination is running wild
Chuck: haha
Chuck: ayos lang
Chuck: i've taken the reins
Chuck: we won't get too far
Gaspard: oo nga
Gaspard: hahahaha
Chuck:
Chuck: hey
Chuck: Gaspard
Chuck: you aren't sleeping yet?
Gaspard: ?
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: i cant
Chuck: coffee?
Gaspard: ahhahaahhhahaha
Chuck: watch the link i sent again
Chuck: i'll have lunch with my family tomorrow
Chuck: need to get some rest
Gaspard: wow
Gaspard: nice
Gaspard: wait
Gaspard: lets do it
Gaspard: im serious
Chuck: not feasible Gaspard
Chuck: location, time
Chuck: hindi kaya
Chuck:
Gaspard: nice one
Gaspard: hahahaha
Gaspard: thats the answer
Gaspard: im looking for
Gaspard:
Chuck: woah
Chuck: so you're testing me?
Gaspard: yep
Gaspard: obvious ba?
Gaspard: hahhahahhahaha
Gaspard: so far u've passed naman
Chuck:
Chuck: ganon?
Chuck:
Chuck: heartbreak
Chuck:
Gaspard: awww
Gaspard: we can sneek out
Gaspard: if u want to
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard:
Chuck: listen to yourself!
Chuck: "name of the place we went to"
Chuck:
Gaspard: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahhahaahaahahahhahaahahha
Chuck: i wish you could do it with someone really special to you
Gaspard: yeah\
Gaspard: i know
Chuck: not just someone you're infatuated with
Gaspard: and a two timer
Chuck: and i'm not proud of it
Gaspard: i'll miss u
Chuck: i won't
Gaspard:
Chuck: joke
Chuck:
Chuck: same here
Chuck: and i guess going down on you and breeding you will remain a distant occassional fantasy
Chuck:
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: same here
Gaspard: im getting hard na
Chuck: me too
Chuck: “Chuck’s partner”'s asleep
Gaspard: i want u here
Gaspard: now
Chuck: ditto
Gaspard: i want to kiss ur lips
Gaspard: then go down on ur neck
Chuck: Gaspard
Chuck: sorry
Chuck: taking the reins again
Chuck:
Gaspard:
Chuck: talking with you like this
Chuck: makes me feel like hindi kita kilala
Gaspard: yeah
Chuck: it makes me worry
Gaspard: me too
Gaspard: im being a slut na nga eh
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck:
Gaspard: Chuck
Chuck: yep?
Gaspard: so we cannot see each other anymore. . .
Gaspard: and text
Gaspard: and talk
Chuck: nope
Chuck: bati bati na lang sa office
Gaspard:
Chuck: so
Chuck: shall we conclude?
Chuck: call it a night?
Gaspard: haaay
Gaspard: u decide
Chuck: _
Chuck: taking the reins
Gaspard: wait
Gaspard: hablutin ko muna yung reins
Gaspard:
Gaspard:
Gaspard:
Gaspard:
Gaspard:
Gaspard:
Chuck:
Gaspard: there
Gaspard: i give u back the reins
Gaspard: waaaaaaaaaaaaah
Gaspard: nanggigigil na ako sayo
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck: just did the same
Chuck: for you
Chuck:
Chuck: i wonder who'll get linked to you next?
Gaspard: i dunno
Gaspard: si “Chuck’s partner”?
Gaspard:
Chuck:
Chuck: romantically linked?
Chuck: pero ewan ko din
Chuck: malay natin
Chuck:
Gaspard: funny
Gaspard: nung start ng chat
Gaspard: ako nagpapa-alala sayo na mali
Gaspard: ang ginagawa natin
Gaspard: at ikaw ung naghahabol sa one-day deal natin
Gaspard: ngayon
Gaspard: ikaw naman ung nagpapa-alala
Gaspard: na mali ginagawa natin
Gaspard: at ako naman yung naghahabol sa deal natin
Gaspard: hahahaha
Chuck: Gaspard do you really think that all this fuss with me is worth it?
Gaspard: i dunno
Gaspard: is it?
Chuck: i'm asking you what  you think
Chuck:
Gaspard: wait
Gaspard: may involuntary impulse eh
Gaspard: kasi may nakatutok sa ulo ko
Gaspard: na device
Gaspard: wait
Gaspard: ay
Gaspard: yung coin ko nalaglafg
Gaspard: hahahaa
Chuck:
Gaspard: so all this time
Chuck: ???
Gaspard: the only things
Gaspard: thing*
Gaspard: that keeps us tight
Gaspard: is that one-day deal
Gaspard: hahahahah
Chuck: i don't think so
Chuck: that's what we were waiting for to end all of this
Gaspard: oh yeah
Gaspard: thats a better way of saying it
Gaspard:
Chuck: i wasn't looking for sex
Chuck: when we started, at least
Gaspard: and that was so nice of u
Gaspard: yeah
Chuck: sex? with Gaspard?
Chuck:
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck:
Chuck: my *******?
Chuck: Noo...
Gaspard: and my *******???
Gaspard: hahahaha
Gaspard: we could have been doing it sa conference room
Gaspard: hahahahahahahhahahhahahha
Chuck: roboto kaaliw
Chuck:
Chuck: sorry off topic
Chuck: conference room?
Chuck: yeah...
Chuck: haha
Chuck: scandal!
Gaspard: hahahahahha
Chuck: you on a table
Chuck: on your back
Chuck: argh
Chuck: stop
Chuck: take the reins
Chuck:
Gaspard: di ko na nga ginagatungan eh
Gaspard: hahah
Gaspard: omg
Gaspard: maybe later
Gaspard: i need to "play" with myself
Gaspard: hahah
Gaspard: init eh
Gaspard: hahah
Chuck: hehe
Chuck: ako there's someone here who can help me
Chuck:
Gaspard: hahah
Gaspard: i guess my imagination is good enough for more than 1 hour
Gaspard: hahahahah
Chuck: you really want to do it?
Gaspard: i'll say it bluntly
Gaspard: yes
Chuck: after this
Chuck: can i call you sometime
Chuck: ?
Gaspard: yes
Chuck: i'm curious to find out how it feels to do you
Gaspard: ditto
Chuck: don't care if you're a virgin or not
Gaspard: boner alert!
Chuck: saan?!
Gaspard: wait
Gaspard: Chuck
Gaspard: may ipagtatapat ako sayo
Chuck: what?
Gaspard: ayan
Gaspard: nakatapat na
Gaspard:
Chuck: wow
Chuck: galing
Chuck: bye
Gaspard: hahahahaha
Gaspard: but seriously
Gaspard: im really curious to find out how it feels to do u. . .
Chuck: we'll see
Chuck: hopefully
Chuck: anything else you want to tell me?
Gaspard: i will miss chatting with u
Gaspard: and spending time with u
Chuck:
Chuck: anything else?
Gaspard: i hope that u and “Chuck’s partner” will continue to be strong
Gaspard: and not let a teeny model get in the way of ur relationship
Gaspard: no matter how attractive or charming he is
Gaspard:
Chuck: anything else?
Gaspard: u be careful
Gaspard: and take care of yourself
Chuck: anything else
Chuck: ?
Chuck:
Gaspard: pick a date
Gaspard: jan. 5 or 6
Gaspard: ?
Chuck: what for?
Chuck: have things on those dates...
Gaspard: are u sure???
Chuck: uhm
Chuck: year
Gaspard: 2035
Chuck: my next ***** starts 12/28
Chuck: huh?>
Chuck: di ko gets
Gaspard: hahahaha
Chuck: 1/5 or 1/6/2035?
Gaspard: wait
Gaspard: diba u have a lunch with ur family bukas
Gaspard: ?
Chuck: yeah
Gaspard: until what time?
Chuck: “Chuck’s partner”'s coming with us
Gaspard: im just asking
Chuck: siguro 2pm?
Gaspard: aaahhhh
Gaspard: going back
Gaspard: ur asking me "anything else" ryt?
Chuck: yep?
Chuck: anything else?
Gaspard: see u in my dreams
Chuck: sweet dreams?
Gaspard: omg!!!
Chuck: beautiful nightmare?
Gaspard: sayawin mo yun ha!
Chuck: beyonce?
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck: hello...
Chuck: too girly
Chuck: mahirap gawin boy hip hop
Gaspard: as if ure not a girl
Chuck: i'm not!
Chuck: you're a girl!
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: whatever girly girl
Chuck: kaya nga ikaw ibbreed ko eh
Chuck: and you'll like it!
Chuck:
Gaspard: eh ako ang magbi-breed sayo eh
Gaspard: u'll be riding my toooot
Gaspard:
Chuck: no
Chuck: i'll run away after i do you
Chuck: lol
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck: belat!
Gaspard: nope
Gaspard: igagapos kita
Gaspard: at tska di ka makakatakbo
Gaspard:
Chuck: suuuure....
Gaspard: omg
Chuck: i'll call you sometime
Chuck: i can't just let this pass
Chuck:
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: me too
Gaspard: see u in a distant hotel room???
Chuck: nope
Chuck: see you here when “Chuck’s partner”'s not around
Gaspard:
Gaspard:
Chuck: i want to go to bed with you
Chuck: and wake up with you the next day
Gaspard: awwwwwwww
Gaspard: thats sweet
Gaspard:
Chuck: eat breakfast after
Chuck:
Gaspard: then do it again?
Chuck: yeah
Chuck: then go with you down stairs and wait for you to catch a cab back home
Chuck:
Gaspard: hahahaha
Chuck: text you after an hour to see if you're home safe
Gaspard: thats nice
Gaspard: have packs of rubber ready, okay?
Gaspard:
Gaspard: that's gonna be a "rough" night for u. . .
Chuck:
Chuck: we're getting into it too much na
Chuck:
Gaspard: oo nga eh
Gaspard:
Chuck: think you'd still be good when I get to you?
Gaspard: btw
Gaspard: ure gonna need a wheelchair once im done with u
Gaspard:
Chuck:
Chuck: we'll see
Gaspard:
Chuck: argh
Chuck: enough talk about that
Chuck: i feel filthy
Chuck:
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: me too
Gaspard: its like im no longer
Gaspard: the Gaspard
Chuck: wooshoo
Gaspard: im used to
Gaspard: ur the first person
Gaspard: i've talked dirty with
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck: would you like me to rate your dirty talk?
Chuck:
Gaspard: out of 10?
Chuck: haha
Chuck: joke lang
Chuck: Gaspard you don't need to bluff
Chuck: you're a cute guy
Gaspard: thanks
Gaspard: naks naman
Chuck: i don't model
Chuck:
Chuck: pero seriously
Chuck: keep yourself in check kasi you really don
Chuck: 't have to try hard as much as other peop;le
Chuck:
Gaspard: sana nga
Gaspard: hahahaha
Chuck: alright
Chuck: tulog na ko Gaspard
Gaspard: byebye
Gaspard: call me
Gaspard: hehehe
Chuck: not likely soon
Chuck: but sometime
Gaspard: byebye
Gaspard: mwah
Gaspard: hug
Chuck: mwah
Chuck: handjob
Chuck:
Gaspard: mwah
Gaspard: blowjob
Gaspard: hahah
Chuck: i think i need to jack off now
Chuck:
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: me too
Gaspard:
BUZZ!!!
Gaspard: u there?
Chuck: hmmm
Chuck:
Chuck: i hope all this talk isn't bluffing
Chuck: i'll get in you some day
Chuck: hehe
Chuck: yep
Chuck: not for long
Chuck: why?
Gaspard: nope
Gaspard: I'LL GET IN YOU
Gaspard: hahaha
Chuck: kaw muna, right?
Gaspard: nope
Gaspard: jack en poy muna
Chuck: haha
Chuck: nope
Chuck: no call na!
Chuck: bawi!
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: ****too slutty to be posted here********
Gaspard: hahahaha
Chuck:
Chuck: i'm closing my eyes
Chuck: i can't bear to read that
Gaspard: hahahahaah
Chuck:
Gaspard: too late
Gaspard: u've read it na
Gaspard: hahah
Gaspard: omg
Gaspard:
Chuck: ??
Gaspard: what are u doing now?
Chuck: yawning
Gaspard:
Chuck: getting soft
Chuck: before going to bed
Gaspard: i thought there's someone there to help u naman eh
Chuck: he's asleep
Chuck: why?
Gaspard: nothing
Chuck: tulog na ko
Chuck: good night Gaspard
Gaspard: budnyt Chuck
Gaspard: gudnyt*
Chuck: i'll think about me going in you na
Chuck:
Chuck: sarap!
Chuck:
Chuck: have fun jacking off
Gaspard: i will
Gaspard: haha
Gaspard: i'll send u a video later
Gaspard:
Chuck:
Chuck: seryoso?
Chuck: i'll be waiting
Gaspard: matutulog ka na eh
Gaspard: so wag na lang
Chuck: awww Gaspard
Chuck: you know what
Chuck: sige
Chuck:
Chuck: have to go
Chuck: tired
Gaspard: gudnyt
Gaspard: i'll be going into u na
Gaspard: wet dreams!
Chuck: haha
Gaspard: i mean sweet dreams pala
Gaspard:
Chuck: haha
Chuck: this is fun
Chuck: pero i hope all of this doesn't just boil down to sex
Chuck:
Gaspard: lets hope
Chuck: masasayangan ako
Chuck: sana wag lang fubu
Chuck: anyway
Chuck: gnyt
Gaspard: oo nga
Chuck is typing...
Chuck: you'll hear from me
Gaspard: byebye

Christmas chat... with Nate and Chuck... (Part One)



The following happened last Dec. 25, 2009.
I don't know why I posted this.
But I did anyways...
It's kinda fun remembering these kinds of conversation.
At least, for me...



*The names have been altered.


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Gaspard: musta christmas so far?
Nate: it's fattening! yours?
Gaspard: eto. . .magdamag yata ako kumakain. . .hehehe. .
Gaspard: pero okay lang
Gaspard: di naman ako tumataba eh
Gaspard:
Nate: buti ka pa
Gaspard: malapit ka na mag-double chin
Gaspard: hinay hinay lang ha
Gaspard:
Gaspard: ingat ka palagi. merry christmas ulit


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Gaspard: something wrong with the connection?
Nate: with my laptop
Gaspard: oic
Gaspard: kamusta ka naman?
Nate: ayos naman
Nate: bored sa bahay
Gaspard: hanggang kelan bakasyon nyo?
Gaspard: sign in. . sign off ka ah
Nate: leche kasi ang laptop ko e
Gaspard: maayos pa naman yan ah
Gaspard: when ka free?
Gaspard:
Nate: jan 4 and 5, vl ko
Gaspard: what are ure plans during those days?
Nate: rest lang siguro
Gaspard: you know what. . . i started blogging na. . .
Nate: what site?
Gaspard: blogger
Nate: anong link?
Gaspard: secret
Nate: oki
Gaspard: cheesy eh
Gaspard: haha
Gaspard: i was hoping you can help me. . .
Nate: where?
Gaspard: http://themodelinthatblog.blogspot.com/
Gaspard: read the latest entry
Gaspard: yung "I dont know"
Nate: ah so you really fell pala kay Chuck
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: i just realized that when we went out
Nate: ah ok
Gaspard: he got back with “Chuck’s partner” na eh
Gaspard: pero
Nate: well, for me, just stop
Nate: you know na pala that they got back together e
Nate: kunsensya lang
Nate: tsaka respeto
Gaspard: haaaay
Gaspard: tama ka
Gaspard: dumidistansya na nga ako kay Chuck eh
Nate: di mo alam pwede mangyari
Nate: baka masira ka pa sa office
Gaspard: kaya nga eh
Nate: or even sa family and sa church mo
Nate: ako ayoko muna
Nate: after the "“Chuck’s partner” confrontation"
Nate: natakot na ko
Nate: alam mo kung gaano ko iniingatan pangalan ko
Gaspard: i still feel guilty. . . and i should be
Gaspard: i really am sorry that i got you into this mess that i made. . .
Nate: tapos na yun
Nate: let's move forward
Nate: anyways, choice mo pa rin yun
Nate: basta im telling you
Nate: ingatan mo pangalan mo
Gaspard: palagi na lang ako wrong timing. . . haaay
Nate: hehehe
Nate: kasi naman
Nate: matigas ang ulo
Nate: pwedeng magrequest?
Gaspard: ano un?
Nate: can you change Nate to a different name?
Gaspard: im changing it na
Nate: if you want to be anonymous, you have to change everything
Gaspard: sige sige
Gaspard: im new to this pa eh
Gaspard: sorry
Nate: kasi malay mo meron pala dyan na kilala si Nate tapos sinulat mo pa
Nate: so malalaman rin na ikaw yun
Nate: and not to mention that may nakakita "daw" satin magkasama
Gaspard: ang dami ko pa talaga kelangan matutunan
Gaspard: " and not to mention that may nakakita "daw" satin magkasama" >>> sabi sa akin ng isang guy sa office
Nate: there
Gaspard: so ano gusto mong name?
Nate: kaw bahala
Nate: Kent is similar to Chuck din
Gaspard: hahaahhahhaha
Nate: try mo “my real name”
Nate: hehehe
Nate: or “my real name”
Gaspard: or *************
Nate: no
Nate: “my real name” or “my real name” lang
Gaspard: wow
Gaspard: anonymous nga
Nate:
Gaspard: i call him astroboy eh
Nate: tapos swedish pa titles mo
Nate: naku bahala ka
Nate: alam naman yata nila na marunong ka mag swedish
Gaspard: honga. . .
Gaspard: im doing the changes na
Gaspard: hahaha
Nate: sino naman si mickey?
Gaspard: ahhh
Gaspard: i read his blog
Gaspard: funny eh
Gaspard: hahaha
Nate: jowawis?
Gaspard: huh?
Gaspard: ano ibig sabihin nun?
Nate: jowa
Gaspard: ahhh
Gaspard: nope
Gaspard: btw
Gaspard: i've been reading "Nate's blog" since i was in 1st yr college pa pala
Gaspard: i just remembered
Nate: so you were gay na
Gaspard: sort of
Gaspard: hahah
Nate: hehe
Nate: in denial ka pa rin a
Gaspard: ganun talaga pare
Gaspard: hahahah
Nate: di bagay
Nate: amiga dapat
Nate:
Gaspard: chos
Gaspard:
Nate: ano na nangyari sa inyo ni Chuck?
Gaspard: i missed talking to u
Gaspard: wala na
Gaspard: iniiwasan ko sya
Nate: i dont buy it
Gaspard: he said na mali daw ginagawa nya
Gaspard: pero
Gaspard: di nya daw mapigilan sarili nya
Nate: sex lang habol nya
Nate: eeeewwww!!!
Nate: san kayo nagdedate ni Chuck?
Nate: kiss sa cr din?
Gaspard: sana hindi naman
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: never pa
Gaspard: we never kissed or held hands
Gaspard: or touched each other
Nate: We still text each other. See each other. Talk with each other. Want to spend more time with each other. All in done in secret.
Nate: ayan o
Gaspard: uhm. . .delayed po yun
Gaspard: last time na we talked
Gaspard: OMG
Gaspard: kahapon lang pala
Gaspard: or 23rd
Nate: oh well
Nate: good luck sa inyo
Nate: mahirap kalaban si “Chuck’s partner”
Nate: ingat
Gaspard: ipagdadasal ko na sarili ko
Gaspard: alam mo ba?
Gaspard: nung magkasama kami ni Chuck
Gaspard: tumawag si “Chuck’s partner”
Gaspard: tsk tsk
Nate: san kayo nagpunta?
Gaspard: sa ***********
Gaspard: at sa park sa makati na di ko alam kung saan
Nate: may aaminin ako sayo
Gaspard: ano?
Nate: alam mo ba may nakakita sa inyo?
Nate: remember when you stayed sa desk ko?
Nate: diba there were office people there?
Gaspard: desk?
Nate: one of them saw you and Chuck "daw"
Nate: sa work station ko
Nate: when i was trying to profile you
Gaspard: aaahhh
Nate: coz you got sick during ***********
Gaspard: aah
Nate: di ko lang pinansin
Nate: i told her that magkaibigan lang kayo
Nate: and he was your *******
Nate: para hindi na kumalat
Gaspard:
Nate: i tried to protect you
Nate: kaya sana sa susunod mag-iingat ka
Nate: i care for you “my real name”
Gaspard:
Nate: what i felt for you was real
Gaspard: waaaaaaaaaaah
Nate: believe it or not
Nate: pero wrong timing nga siguro
Gaspard:
Nate: and you did "that" to me pa
Nate: basta take care of yourself
Nate: dont always let your heart rule over your brain
Nate: i mean mind
Nate: hehe
Gaspard: haaay
Gaspard: mahina ako sa mga ganung bagay
Gaspard: i guess i still have
Gaspard: a lot of
Gaspard: growing up to do
Nate: so be very careful
Nate: magisip ka muna ng maraming beses
Nate: before you do something
Gaspard: a step at a time
Gaspard: haaay
Gaspard: Nate
Gaspard:
Gaspard: thanks ha
Nate: saan?
Gaspard: binatukan mo ako
Gaspard: nagising ako
Gaspard: hehe
Gaspard: i'll be more careful
Nate: it's my responsibility
Nate: mahirap iexplain
Gaspard: how come responsibility mo na din yun?
Nate: coz you're part of my life
Nate: basta mahirap iexplain
Gaspard:
Gaspard: parang tanga ako dito
Gaspard: umiiyak mag-isa
Gaspard: hahahaha
Nate: bakit?
Nate: weh
Nate: bakit ka naman umiiyak?
Gaspard: kasio
Gaspard: kasi*
Gaspard: in spite of everything wrong and stupid that i did to you
Gaspard: u're still being kind to me
Gaspard: at kinakausap mo pa din ako
Gaspard: Chuck just texted me
Gaspard: now
Nate: ano sabi?
Gaspard: nangangamusta lang
Nate: ano sabi mo?
Gaspard: i didnt reply
Gaspard: ung ****** namin sa ********
Nate: ano name?
Gaspard: ******
Gaspard: pinakilala ako sa ibang managers
Gaspard: ng ibang department
Gaspard: including “Chuck’s partner”
Gaspard: minsan
Gaspard: iniisip ko na lang
Gaspard: na lumipat ng ibang company eh
Nate: alam mo...
Nate: lumipat ka man or hindi
Nate: kung ganyan ang mangyayari
Nate: e wala rin
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: u have a point
Gaspard: sobrang gwapo ko kasi eh. . . haaaaay. . .
Nate: huh!
Gaspard: hahahahahhahaa
Nate: narcissist!
Gaspard: hahahahahahahahahaha
Gaspard: eh ikaw naman
Gaspard: musta ka naman?
Nate: as usual, busy pa rin sa work
Gaspard: tsk tsk
Gaspard: haggard to the max?
Nate: may pasok nga kami sa monday e
Gaspard: nyek
Gaspard: akala ko deretso na kayo sa new year
Nate: hindi nga e
Nate: bwishit kasi ang penguin
Gaspard: hehe
Gaspard: im changing the titles na
Gaspard: sa "blog
Gaspard: "
Gaspard: ko
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: nakaka-relieve pala ng stress
Gaspard: hehehe
Nate: yeah
Gaspard: hindi ko na alam kung ano gagawin ko sa ring ko
Gaspard: hahahaha
Gaspard: i wish we can talk with each other soon
Gaspard:
Nate: keep it
Nate: malay mo, soon, may bumalik
Nate:
Gaspard: sana
Gaspard:
Nate:
Gaspard: hindi ko nga masuot yung ring eh
Gaspard: allergic kasi ako sa metals
Nate: bakit?
Gaspard: so bawal ako mag necklace, rings, bracelet etc
Gaspard: pati nga watches eh
Nate: a talaga?
Gaspard: opo
Nate: yun pa naman gift ko sayo
Nate: seryoso
Gaspard: weh?
Gaspard: ok lang
Gaspard: magkasugat sugat
Gaspard: balat ko
Gaspard: basta galing sayo
Gaspard: hehehe
Nate: hindi, ayoko
Gaspard: nyek
Gaspard: alam mo Nate
Gaspard: . . .
Nate: yep?
Gaspard: ADIK KA PA DIN!!!!
Gaspard:
Nate: pano?
Gaspard: wala lang
Gaspard: hahah
Gaspard: hindi mo pa din
Gaspard: natatapos
Gaspard: yung mga books?
Nate: hindi pa
Nate: hahaha
Gaspard: anong petsa na
Gaspard: hahahah
Nate: oo nga e
Nate: sana matapos ko na before dec 31
Nate: 2010
Nate: hahaha
Gaspard:
Gaspard: may mga nagpaparamdam ba sayo?
Gaspard:
Nate: yeah, pero di ko pinapansin
Nate: honestly
Gaspard: yeeeeeehhhhhheeeeee. . .
Nate: really
Gaspard: heheheheh
Gaspard: siguro lalo na nung party noh?
Nate: di ko alam
Nate: di ako tumitingin sa mga faces nila e
Gaspard: aaah
Gaspard: oki
Gaspard:
Nate: di ako pokpok no
Gaspard: i know ure not
Gaspard:
Gaspard: behaved ka nga palagi eh
Nate: oo naman
Nate: ako pa
Nate: gayahin mo ako
Gaspard: behaved naman din ako ah
Gaspard:
Nate: di kaya
Nate: si Chuck naging date mo na
Nate: eeewwww!!!!
Gaspard: u know what
Gaspard: parehas kayo ng iniisip ni Chuck
Gaspard: ayaw nya din sayo eh
Gaspard: hahahaha
Nate: i dont care
Nate: alam ko kung bakit
Nate: kasi nilalandi ako kunwari ni “Chuck’s partner”
Gaspard: weh?
Gaspard: ang gulo nga nila eh
Nate: joke
Nate: hindi no
Gaspard: hahahahahhaha
Nate: bakit ayaw sakin ni Chuck?
Gaspard: ewan ko dun
Gaspard: may napansin ako
Gaspard: sa inyong dalawa
Nate: ano?
Gaspard: parehas kayong mga snob
Gaspard:
Nate: may differences din naman kami
Gaspard: oo nga
Gaspard: marami
Nate: sya isang malaking POKPOK!
Gaspard: hahahahhaha
Gaspard:
Gaspard: he asked me to have an affair with him
Nate: yak!
Nate: “my real name” tigilan mo na sya
Nate: nakakahiya
Gaspard: kaya nga
Nate: wait lang
Nate: i'll watch "Nate's school" concert at channel *****
Gaspard: oki
Gaspard:
Nate: pakabait ka “my real name”
Gaspard: opo
Gaspard: i will
Gaspard: i'll go back
Gaspard: to being the
Gaspard: “my real name” before
Gaspard: i came to our office
Gaspard: hehehe
Gaspard: can i still call u sometime?
Nate: oo naman
Nate: wait start na
Gaspard: hehee
Gaspard: chat with u later?
Nate: sure
Gaspard: yehey!!!!
Gaspard:
Gaspard: ur back?
Nate: sa ipod lang
Nate: i have work on monday and tuesday
Nate: then babalik ako on jan 6 na
Gaspard: u there?
Nate: yes
Gaspard: im talking with Chuck now
Gaspard: YM
Gaspard:
Nate: matigas ulo mo
Nate: sige na
Nate: do what you want
Gaspard: we're making a deal na
Nate: bahala ka na
Gaspard: we're gonna stop
Nate: you know what
Nate: you dont have to make a deal
Nate: just stop
Nate: as simple as that
Gaspard: thats what i mean
Gaspard: sorry
Nate: ah yeah, i forgot, you're falling for him, ok bahala ka na
Gaspard: we agreed to stop na
Gaspard: done
Gaspard:
Gaspard: ano na gawa mo?
Nate: wala lang
Nate: '
Gaspard: what time are u gonna sleep?
Nate: i dont know
Nate: i might be disturbing you and Chuck
Gaspard: no ur not
Gaspard:
Gaspard: haaaaaaaaaay
Gaspard: thanks Nate
Nate: matigas ulo mo e
Gaspard: yeah
Gaspard: i've realized that
Gaspard: i think kelangan ko bumalik sa seminaryo
Gaspard: remember ung dapat na isasayaw mo?
Nate: ha?
Gaspard: di mo na matandaan?
Nate: alin?
Gaspard: sweet dreams
Gaspard: hehehe
Nate: ah
Nate: si Chuck na lang pasayawin mo. magaling naman sya sumayaw
Gaspard: nyek
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: i have a question. . .
Gaspard: u there?
Nate: what's that?
Gaspard: i think u know well that im still in love with u. . .
Gaspard: and i want to know. . .
Gaspard: if u still have feelings for me . . .
Nate: meron naman
Gaspard: will you give me one more chance?
Nate: i cant answer that
Gaspard: i understand
Nate: siguro
Gaspard: sooo. . .
Nate: so, what?
Gaspard: ur single. . . and strong. . .
Gaspard:
Nate: anong strong?
Gaspard: haaay
Gaspard: so how did u end things with ur ex?
Nate: ending was not good
Nate: as usual, sumbatan pa rin
Nate: i'll inform you pag ipopost ko na sya sa blog ko
Gaspard: eh private na si Nate eh
Nate: not yet
Nate: i might delete it
Gaspard: why?
Gaspard: kasi nabasa ko na?
Nate: no
Gaspard: im just kidding
Gaspard:
Nate: matagal ko na sya gusto idelete
Gaspard: why?
Nate: coz im tired of writing ng patago
Nate: i want to have a blog na si Nate ang kilala
Gaspard: u have
Gaspard: diba?
Nate: yeah
Nate: i might maintain my multiply
Gaspard: na parehas ng profile skin sa akin?
Gaspard:
Nate: yeah
Gaspard: hahaha
Gaspard: arent u gonna sleep?
Nate has signed out. (12/26/2009 12:40 AM)

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