Sunday, December 4, 2011

Komma, Flyga Med Mig

Nagpunta ako sa Manila Hotel this December 3 lang kasi one of my friends told me that Qatar Airways is looking for a new batch of cabin crew daw. To tell you the truth, I have imagined myself flying as a flight attendant naman before. Kasi I love traveling naman. I think I'm cosmopolitan. I have background in customer service. I'm multilingual. I'm goodlooking. I'm a fast learner and I work very hard. My aunts are flight attendants, my grandfather was a pilot. I think nasa dugo ko na din ang pagpasok sa ganung industry.

Well, a week before the CV submission, nag-prepare na agad ako! I think it's all about how you present yourself sa CV submission day. Kasi nga ipapasa mo lang naman ang resume mo, then a couple of minutes na chitchat sa recruitment team ng Qatar Airways. Afterwards, you can go home na then wait for their call kung pasok ka sa 2nd round ng screening.

I searched a lot of things on the internet para prepared ako and I'll know what to expect kapag nandun na ako sa venue. I even read the advices and tips of seasoned flight attendants eh. I also read a bit of a background ng history ng Qatar Airways, their fleet and about the aviation industry in general. Baka biglang magtanong ng ganun eh. Haha.

Number 1 - Visual impact

Sa gusto man o sa ayaw natin, kelangan na maitsura ang isang flight attendant. So since sinabi sa akin ni Luch na mukha na daw akong gusgusin, nagpagupit ako ng hair. Gusto ko kasing magpahaba ng hair para magaya ko ang hair style ni James Dean. Pero nung humaba na nga ang hair ko, hindi ko naman alam kung papaano ayusin. Hahaha. So ayun, nagpagupit na lang ako. Less hassle pa.

Araw-araw na din ako nagsipilyo. Hindi lang kapag may pasok sa school or kapag may VTR or shoot. HAHAHAHA! Syempre joke lang yan...or is it?

Buti na lang at ginantimpalaan ako ni God ng magandang balat kaya clear ang complexion ko. Hehe. Pero kahit na. Halos maubos ko yata ang mga creams, serums, scrubs and masks dito sa "kikoy kit" ko. Mahirap na. Its better to prevent zits than to pop them.

Tumungga ako ng tubig. Madaming tubig.

I even slept extra early! Kelangan hindi mukhang puyat!

I pulled out my best coats, blazers, dress shirts, ties and shoes para lang sa araw na iyon. I settled on a navy blue blazer, skinny slacks, slim necktie and a well fitting dress shirt. I looked and felt good about how I looked. Hehehe.

Number 2 - Resume / CV

I edited my resume para it would fit this industry. I think I was able to present the good things about me naman. I highlighted my skills, my work experience and what I can do to make them believe that I can be someone they're looking for.

Kung mag-a-apply ka bilang FA, kelangan mo din ng picture. Yung picture na talagang lilitaw ang pagiging model mo. Dapat gwapo or maganda ka. 4R and meron din dapat na passport sized. Sky blue background.

Number 3 - How to Get There on TIME

Strict ang mga airlines when it comes to time, in general. Ayoko naman dumating ng late kasi it will give a bad impression on you. Or worse, hindi ka na nila papasukin sa venue. Madali lang naman pumunta ng Manila Hotel kung galing ka ng Cavite. Sakay ka lang ng bus papuntang Lawton, baba ka ng Kalaw, then pumara ng taxi. Hahaha. Kung mas tamad ka sa akin, or mas mayaman, mag-taxi ka na sa Cavite pa lang.

Number 4 - Smile

I was told by my FA friends na you should always smile, be friendly, look as if approachable ka. But also just be yourself. Handle yourself very well. Look smart. Be smart but not arrogant. Be poised. Hindi naman ako palingkerong Caviteno tulad ni Marian Rivera. Hihihi.

Number 5 - Pray

I prayed a lot. I even fasted. I know that eveything rests in God's will. Kung hindi ko pa oras para lumipad, hindi pa Niya talaga sa akin ibibigay iyon. Nagpa-bless din ako sa Dad ko for guidance.

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So dumating na nga ang December 3. Maaga akong nagising. Nakapag-weights pa ako for 1 hour before ako nag-prepare papunta sa CV submission ng Qatar Airways. After that, ligo, bihis, kuha ng requirements, checked if I have everything, papogi. Then biyahe na ako agad.

Mabilis lang ang biyahe since it was a Saturday. Hindi rush hour. Around 8am, nasa loob na ako ng Manila Hotel. 9am ang start ng submission pero nang pagpasok ko ng pavilion, nagulat ako sa SOBRANG DAMING tao na dumating. Parang may concert. Napalunok ako. Parang dadaan nga ako sa butas ng karayom. 8am pa lang iyon pero parang nasa 400 na kami sa loob. At madami pang nadating sa bawat minutong lumilipas.

I have to say na madaming gwapo at magaganda. Ahihihihi. Pero may mga parang napadaan lang or naisama lang ng kaibigan. Or baka naligaw lang. Take note. Hindi ko sila nilait. I just described them. Hehehe.

So I was walking towards the line para sa sign-up sheet nang biglang may humarang sa akin. Crew yata ng recruitment agency.

"Sir, bawal po kayo pumasok. Hindi po kayo nakasunod sa dress code."

"Huh? What do you mean? I followed everything on your list! Tingnan mo ang suot ko! Is there something wrong? Is it too revealing?" (sabay pirouette)


At lakad pa ako while smiling!

"Sir, hindi po kayo pwede talaga pumasok."

"Bakit naman?" Naba-bad trip na ako!

"Hindi po kayo naka-pusod. Dapat naka-bun ang hair nyo."

"Ganun ba?"







Sa sobrang badtrip ko, napahigpit tuloy ang buhok ko. Ito ang naging final result.


Muntik ko na mapunit ang anit ko.... oh well...




And buti na lang, hindi ako overdressed. All smiles pa ako nyan pagpasok sa door!



After writing my name sa sign up sheet, reach test na. You just have to reach a mark sa wall para malaman if pasok ang height mo sa standards nila. I feel bad for some of the girls there. Kasi they exerted effort to prepare and go there pero dahil sa height nila, na-cut agad sila. (Nakalagay sa website ng Qatar Airways ang minimum height requirement for both males and females. Hindi ko alam kung bakit may mga nagpumilit.)

After that, nagbigay ng konting introduction yung mga taga-recruit. Madali lang. Magpapasa ka lang talaga ng resume. Tapos small talk lang sandali. Then uwi na.

While waiting for my turn, I was able to meet a girl. She thought siguro na I was straight kaya nagpa-cute pa si ate. Mabait naman sya. She offered me some candy pero tumanggi ako. Kaka-mouthwash ko lang din eh. Haha. She told me na it's going to be her 2nd time applying for this job and she told me na meron daw siyang mga kilala na 5th or 6th time na nila mag-a-apply. Medyo madaldal si ate pero bibo naman sya. At halata mong smart. Pero hindi ko lang alam kung pasado ang looks nya sa mga recruiter. 

Medyo inaantok ako kaya I think I dozed off for a couple of minutes. I think hindi naman ako humilik. Comfortable kasi ang chairs eh. Hehe.

When its my turn na, I stood up, gave my resume, told the recruiter why they should hire me then I walked out of the building na. I had my fingers crossed. I hope I impressed them enough to remember me. And hopefully, give me a call.

They told all the applicants that the people who will get a call on Dec. 3 or 4 will go back for the 2nd part of the screening.

So I went back home na. Thinking that I was able to do a good job, not great I think, I went back to my room and prayed. I really wanted this so bad.

Dec. 3 passed.













Wala pa ding tawag...




Kinakabahan na ako...







Dec. 4 passed.







Hindi na sila tumawag.


Hindi naman ako umiyak. Hindi ko pa talaga oras. Hindi pa para sa akin ang trabahong iyon. I felt a bit sad. Pero I didn't feel defeated naman. Okay lang. At least now I know what to do next time.

Pero, I was thinking...ano kaya ang reason kung bakit hindi ako nakuha....

Okay naman ang resume ko...

Bibo naman ako nung nag-uusap kami ng recruiter...

I looked good in my pictures as well as in person...

hhhmmm...





That's when I remembered!



Nakatulog pala ako nung naghihintay ako!






































Siguro ganyan ako kahimbing nun! Tsk tsk!


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Hindi nga ako nakuha sa Qatar Airways. Hindi man lang ako nakuha para sa 2nd part. Sigh. Gaspard, the model in that blog, didn't pass the initial screening...

Oh well...that's life. May next time pa naman....

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I applied sa isang call center sa Eastwood a couple of weeks ago. It is for a bilingual account and they required foreign language speakers. I was able to pass all the interviews but I was competing with a foreigner who's a native speaker of the language required.

I didn't set my hopes up. Kalaban ko native speaker eh.

I was surprised that they called me for the job offer. The client really liked me daw (or baka masyado malaki ang asking price ni foreigner kaya ako kinuha nila. Hahaha.) I think I kinda liked the company too. They asked me kung magkano ang ine-expect ko na salary. As far as I know, if you're a bilingual customer service representative, MALAKI ang salary mo. I gave them my price.

They wanted to meet me this week to talk about my salary. Hehehe.

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Kung hindi sayo ibinigay ng Diyos ang gusto mo, ito ay dahil may ibang bagay na mas nararapat sa iyo. Bagay na naaayon sa pangangailangan mo. Bagay na mas mapapabuti ka. At bagay na mas "bagay" sayo. Nakikinig ang Diyos sa ating mga hiling pero kailangan natin maunawaan na kapag hindi pa nito oras, hindi pa Niya sa atin ito ibibigay.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Att Hålla En Tyst

I type a lot of things here in this online journal.  But there were some I don't have the courage to even post. The emotions and ideas that I typed, I think, were so raw and unfiltered. I don't post them because I think it will have negative consequences on me and my boyfriend. Those entries were too personal to even post them online,I'd rather read them to myself. I think those entries were some of my most beautiful, not because it was well written but it's because those were the entries I've written when I'm truly inspired, when I'm really stupid, when I feel really bad and on the verge of breaking down, when I see no point in continuing this madness, when I feel like love is not really enough, when I feel like I couldn't forget the things that happened in the past, when I don't trust, when I'm unfaithful, when I don't give a damn anymore. But I won't post them.

There is something about us. 

I've learned that there will always be some things that should only be known by you. There should be something that should be left private and for your eyes only. You should know how to shut it. You should know how to feign emotions.You should keep it to yourself even though at some point, you feel that your knees could no longer bear the weight.


Adele - One and only

In silence, you will learn how to value yourself. And be honest to the only person you should never tell lies to. Yourself.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Ingen Annan Kvinna

We celebrated our 13th monthsary without each other. And the fact that we can't see each other for almost a whole week because Joe was with Luch. At least I had the whole week to myself. Actually, it wasn't that bad after all. I was able to do my own stuff.

But what if...what if lang naman...what if hindi si Luch ang partner ko ngayon? Or what if single si Luch nung nagkakilala kami? What could I have been doing now kung ganoon nga yung nangyari? Napaisip lang naman ako...Hhhhmmm.

Finally, I was able to watch No Other Woman. It was okay. Not bad. But I think it could have been better. Magaling ang pag-arte ng mga artista. I was able to feel the characters, maybe because I'm "sort of" in that situation. Ako na talaga. Ako na si Anne. LOL. (Ang hot nina Anne and Christine. Lalo na si Derek. Kanin na lang ang kulang.)




natawa ako sa video na yan. PANALO talaga! Hahaha! Paano kaya kung ganoon yung mga lines sa movie talaga? Haha.

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Ang nais ko lang iparating sa entry na ito ay masaya magmahal at mahalin...pero wag kang lapit nang lapit sa isang manok na nakatali na. Hindi rason na kapag nakatali na, mas madaling mahuli. Wag ganon. Kasi, kapag ikaw ay na-in love sa isang nakatali na, may chance na 1 week kayo hindi magkikita, ang Valentines mo ay every Feb. 15 or 16 at lagi kang nagmamadali na baka ikaw ang mahuli.

Love you Luch! Happy 13th! :)

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Vår Hund

Sunday last week, our dog passed away. 

Naging kaibigan ng pamilya namin ang aso namin for almost a decade. Ang hirap din mamatayan ng isang alaga. Lalo na kung mahal na mahal mo ito. 

Nung gabing napansin namin na nanghihina ang aso namin, nagmamadali kaming naghanap ng vet although gabi na. Tawag ako ng tawag sa mga clinic pero sarado na daw sila. Sabi ko na emergency. Puro sila pero ng pero. Siguro para sa mga taong iyon, mas mahalaga na makapag-pahinga na sila kesa sa buhay ng mga alaga namin. Naawa ako sa aso namin. Nainis ako sa mga vet.

Masasabi kong ang isang pet ay maituturing mo na bestfriend. Isang bestfriend na never ka gagalitin. Bestfriend na kapag ikaw ang nagalit sa kanya, sya pa ang magso-sorry. Bestfriend na never ka tatalikuran. At laging hihintayin ang iyong pag-uwi.

Since we were not able to find any doctor who can accommodate us, my dad and I just went back home. We did some first aid on our dog but she's becoming really weak too fast. I didn't know what's happening.

My dad told me that I could just go to bed. Maghihintay na lang kami ng umaga at dadalin agad namin ang aso namin sa bukas na animal clinic. In my mind, that's the last time I will see her alive.

Around 4am, our dog died. My dad, who was the closest to our dog, was talking to her.

"Alam kong matanda ka na. Salamat ng marami sa pagbabantay sa pamilya ko. Naging mabuti kang kaibigan. Makapag-papahinga ka na. Mahal ka namin."

My dad was crying when he said that.

With one last breath, our dog cried and with an instant, she became lifeless.
We buried her in our backyard. All of us were crying. My dad dug the grave.

Nung nililibing na namin ang aso namin at tinatabunan na namin siya lupa, napahinto nang pagtatabon ng lupa si Papa.

Humahagulgol siya. Alam kong para sa kanya, parang nawalan na din sya ng isang anak.

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I was inside my room. Looking at the mirror, checking of I have zits. Assessing if my going to the gym has a positive effect on my build. Then I heard something.

"I love you!"

I was the only person inside my room.

It was my little sister's dog stuffed toy.

I pressed it, hoping that it will squeak "I love you" again but it didn't.

I asked my mom if it's still working. Sabi nya, hindi na daw. Wala na daw kasing battery.

Nagpaparamdam na din pala ang mga aso ngayon? I just smiled.



"I know. And I love you too. Magpahinga ka na. 'Til we meet again, friend."




By the way, the picture's the statue of Hachiko. You'll love their story.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Min Helg

I guess this is one of the weekends that I was really able to enjoy. Bibihira na lang din naman kasi ako tumambay lang or lumabas para gumala at mag-party.

Luch and I had appointments sa DFA for our passports so we really had to wake up early. Good thing we came on time. After that, balik na kami agad ng condo para matulog ulit. Basically, we just lazed around the whole afternoon and evening. Bumangon lang kami ng kama para mag-prepare sa pupuntahan namin.

To tell you the truth, I'm not the kind of person you'll see going to a party. I feel awkward when I go to parties. The ony part that I enjoy most likely is the preparation. Yung tipong maghahanap ka ng pamporma para mapansin ka. Hehehe. Oh well. Kasi naman, I don't drink and I don't smoke. Yes. I go to parties pero I NEVER drink and I NEVER smoke. Nasanay na ang mga friends ko sa akin kaya hindi na nila ako pinipilit. It's part of our religion kasi eh.

So ayun nga. This past weekend, Luch and I got invites from Hennessy Artistry. Ang sosyal lang ng event. Syempre, casual chic daw ang kailangan na damit. Since I always strive to look good sa kahit na anong klaseng event (kahit pa bibili lang ng fishball sa kanto), hinalungkat ko ang aking baul para makahanap ng pamporma. Success naman kasi I was well put naman sa event and I looked like a freakin asian James Dean! Yeah. Coz that's how I roll. Joke lang. Hahaha.

I helped Luch with his clothes din. When we're done altering our gowns (yes, naka-red Valentino gown si Luch at ako naman ay naka-Yves Saint Laurent mini. HAHAHAHA). But seriously, I made him look dashing as ever. Pero I was really touched when he said he's so proud of me, especially now that we're going to an event together. Ang gwapo ko daw kasi. Napangiti ako. Nang nakanganga. Labas ang ngipin. Hehehe.

Iba pa din talaga kapag pinuri ka ng mga mahal mo sa buhay. Mas malaki at mas malakas ang impact.

So we were able to go to the event. At akala ko pa, sinundan kami ni Joe pero buti na lang ibang car pala yun. The evening was full of beautiful people, or feeling beautiful people. Parang ako lang. Hahaha. Nandun din si Cliff na matagal ko na ding crush. I instantly drooled nung nakita ko siya sa stage, hosting. Pinigilan lang ako ni Luch. Dito na din nagsimula na bigyan kami ng mga drinks.

When we went inside Opus, it was a different environment. Bar mode na talaga kami. I've never seen Luch move to any kind of musical beat so it was kinda weird. Yeah, I know. More than a year na kami pero ngayon ko pa lang sya nakitang umiindayog sa musika. Ang weird din daw na makita nya akong gumigiling sa beat ng mga sexy DJs.

Dapat din pala na kahit minsan, hindi kami magkasama ni Luch. Wala na kasi kaming mapag-usapan sa bar eh. Hehe.

Madaming beki sa loob ng bar. Naamoy ko si Tim Yap 500 feet away. Hahahaha. I think naisipan ng mga beki na sa left side ng bar magtipon. I dunno why.

I gave all my drinks (props) to Luch, who drank it for me. Nakakahiya naman na bibigyan ako ng alak tapos hahawakan ko lang buong magdamag so binigay ko na lang kay Luch. I think in total, Luch had 8 glasses of expensive liquor. Hehehe.

Luch was able to see some of his friends. And also his former fling, na-SUPER BEST FRIEND KO SA BUONG MUNDO. At dahil super best friend ko ang lalaking yun, hindi kami nagpansinan. (I'll tell more about him maybe in the next posts to come.)

Para mawala ang tama ni Luch, we decided to eat muna sa Mcdonalds. After a bit of walking and exploring Resort's World, we decided to call it a night. It was a really great evening, though I didn't drink.

May konting pagkakahawig ang gabing ito sa mahiwagang gabi ni Cinderella. Pero di tulad ni Cinderella, hindi nawala ang sapatos ko, kasama kong umuwi ang Prince Charming ko, gwapo pa din ako pagkalampas ng hating gabi at higit sa lahat, hindi ito isang fairy tale. At lahat nang nangyari ay tunay.

Tunay dahil ramdam ko ang init ng mga yakap ni Luch.
Tunay dahil naririnig ko pa din ang tunog ng musika sa aking mga tenga.
Tunay dahil mas malakas pa sa tunog na iyon ang pagsasabi sa akin ni Luch na mahal nya ako.
Tunay dahil may hangover pa din daw si Luch sa dami ng alak na nainom nya.
Tunay dahil masakit pa din ang paa ko.
Tunay dahil walang fairy godmother.
Tunay dahil kasama ko si  Luch.

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This Saturday naman, I went out on a date with my little sister. She's actually 12 years old now and we're as close as ever. Dalaga na ang aming baby. Dati ay nabubuhat ko pa sya. Ngayon, ako na ang binubuhat nya. Hahaha!

Ang plan namin, pumunta sa mall na todo ang porma. Wala lang. Yung tipong overdressed ka. Trip lang namin magpa-pansin. Hahaha. Minsan lang naman din kasi kami lalabas ng magkasama.

We just went to the mall, watched a movie together and ate dinner together.

Ang ending, iika-ikang umuwi ang kapatid ko dahil sa taas ng heels na suot nya that day. At ako naman hindi makahinga sa corset na suot ko. LOL.

Akala siguro ng mga tao na mag-boyfriends kami kasi sa sobrang close namin. At tsaka kasi she looks older than her real age dahil sa height nya.

She's one of the reasons why I go back to Cavite on weekends instead of just staying here in Makati :)

I love my little sister and I hope she wouldn't change a bit.

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I really had fun on these days. Iba pa din pala ang pakiramdam when you hang out with people that are very dear to you.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Nu Visar

Tulad nga ng nai-post ko the last time HERE, I have new projects.

And...

Lumabas na ang aking newest commercials! Yey!

Two of them actually.

Yung isa kasama si Erich, Angelica and Gretchen for a shampoo.

The other one's with Ai Ai De Las Alas for a laundry detergent.






Hanapin nyo ako dun! Hahahaha!

Halloween :)

Just this past Halloween, I was able to attend a party with my closest college friends. There were also some people na I wasn't able to get along with. Anyways, that party went pretty boring for someone like me who doesn't really drink nor smoke. Oh well. Mura lang naman ang ticket. Pero I still want to get a refund.

Since it was a Halloween party, it was required that we should come wearing a costume. Since manggagaling ako ng Cavite nun, hindi ko na binalak dumating ng naka-costume. Hassle kaya kung sasakay ako ng MRT. Hindi kasya ang Victoria's Secret wings ko.

So ayun nga.

I was able to chat with my close friend / coursemate / orgmate / collegemate / schoolmate / classmate. She told me that she was very thankful na her ex broke up with her or else she wouldn't realize na there are other men out there who's better than her ex. She couldn't even mention her ex's name so we just called him ex. So there, we were able to talk about a lot of things. I asked her kung malaki ba. Sabi nya mas malaki yung kay current boyfriend. Mas malaki ang pagmamahal nya. (Kung titi ang naisip mo, hindi ka nag-iisa. Hahaha.)

At nasabi nya pa sa akin na dati daw, nang sila pa ni Ex, kapag tinatanong nya daw si Ex kung bakit nya daw mahal ang friend ko, eh kasi dahil daw mabait ang friend ko, maganda, maalaga etc. Sabi naman ni friend ko, dapat daw hindi ganun ang sagot. Hindi mo daw dapat alam kung bakit mo mahal ang isang tao. Ika nga ni Shakespeare sa Sonnet 116 (level up na!), love can never be measured.

Napaisip tuloy ako.

Bakit ko mahal si Luch?

Actually hindi ko alam ang sagot. Natural yata na hindi magkasundo ang utak at puso ko sa usaping "love". Basta ang alam ko na lang, mahal ko na siya. Kaya nga "falling in love" ang tawag eh. Kusa ka na lang mahuhulog nang hindi mo alam. Kung alam natin kung kelan at paano tayo mahuhulog, edi dapat wala nang taong mahuhulog sa kanal, tulad ng maganda kong kapatid. (Maganda nga, tanga naman. Sigh.)

Mahal ko siya kasi…

Kasi he makes me laugh? Hindi naman siya clown. At hindi din siya kalbo para magpatawa.

Kasi he's goodlooking and hot? Madami din naman dyan. May iba nga na mas gwapo pa sa kanya na nagpaparamdam sa akin dati.

Kasi matalino sya? Siguro pero hindi lang naman iyon eh.

Kasi maalaga at maaalalahanin siya? Hindi naman ako naghahanap ng caregiver or yaya.

Kasi mahal ko siya? Oo. Sapul. Sakto. Tumpak. Korak. PAK!

Mahal ko si Luch kasi mahal ko siya. Hindi ko na kailangan na iba pang rason.


Sa Halloween party na iyon, may ni-recruit na manghuhula ang mga organizers. Diba ang bongga? Instant Quiapo ang bar na pinuntahan namin. So ayun nga, nagpahula ako. Ako yung tipo ng tao na hindi nagpapahula kasi hindi naman ako naniniwala sa mga ganun. Siguro dahil iyon ang mahigpit na turo sa aming simbahan.

So ayun nga. Nagpahula ako sa babae. Skeptical pa din ako kung manghuhula ba talaga iyon. Kasi naman. Naka pink na bra lang si ate at mahabang skirt. Complete with fairy wings pa. At kakatapos lang ni Tinkerbell (na mas malaki pa ang Adam's apple sa akin) magpahula.

So ayun. Nagulat lang ako. Ang manghuhula pala ay friend ko lang din from college / orgmate / ex-gf. Oo. Ex-girlfriend. Straight pa ako nang mga panahong iyon. Pero it didn't work out between us. Hindi kasi sya magaling na top eh. HAHAHAHAHA! (Biruan lang namin yun sa isa't-isa na mag-ex kami. Close lang talaga kasi kami with each other. She's one of my closest friends talaga.)

She told me that she was able to learn the art of palm reading from an expert. Feeling ko naman niloloko lang ako nun pero nagpahula na din ako.

Life - Mahaba naman daw ang magiging buhay ko. Though there will be two instances in my life na will be very difficult for me to handle. She told me that I grew up with a hard life and it will most likely end kapag nasa late 20s na ako. Maganda naman daw ang magiging buhay ko in the near future.

Career - Up to this moment, hindi pa din daw ako sure sa magiging career ko. Kasi magulo daw ako mag-isip. Magaling daw ako sa iba't-ibang bagay pero sa isa lang daw ako magiging truly happy. I will be very successful with my chosen career and I will have fun daw at the same time. Learn how to prioritize and value time.

Money - I will have lots of money pero I don't have the ability to save daw. Mag-ingat lalo na sa pera.

Religion - I was raised in a conservative Christian family though I don't have strong spiritual foundations kasi at this moment, I'm enjoying the things that I like doing than the things God wanted me to do. Natamaan ako dun. Sobra.

Love - Magiging masaya daw ang buhay pag-ibig ko. In this life daw, I will only have 4 relationships. 2 of them will be short and will not really mean anything to me but the other 2 will be very significant for me, will change me as a person and will also last for a number of years. She also asked me if one of us is cheating daw. Hhhhmmm. Naisip ko si Joe bigla.

Number of Children - Hinawakan nya ang aking lalamunan. Kung ilang buwan na daw. Chos. Malabo naman daw na magka-anak ako kasi nasa CR/toilet ang magiging anak daw namin ni Luch. Huwag daw ako mag-ilusyon. Hahaha.

Natapos ang Halloween party at nakauwi ako ng 5am na. Napailing na lang si Luch sa akin. Masyado na daw late yun. In fact, umaga na nang umuwi ako. Tsk tsk.

Naikwento ko sa kanya ang nanghula sa akin. Pati na yung love part.

"Alam mo Gaspard, Bebeboink, ako na ang pang-apat. Hindi mo alam na naka-3 ka na dati at ako na ang huli. Wag ka na mag-expect na may darating pa."

Kung tatanungin ko sya kung bakit nya ako mahal, siguro alam ko na ang sagot. Kasi mahal nya ako. Higit pa sa inaakala ko. Higit pa sa alam ko. Mahal na mahal nya ako.

Nagtapos ang Halloween week na may ngiti na naman sa aking mga labi at ang mga dapat na magiging anak namin ay nai-flush na naman sa toilet.



Hope everyone had a great Halloween!

Avstånd och Tid

Luch told me that there is a great possibility that he will be sent to India and will stay there for 6 months for work. Of course I didn't know how to react to that news so I just answered with the most generic of answers. I said "Okay lang."

When Luch told Joe about that, he cried about it since this will be the first time, in years that they were a couple, that they will be physically separated for a span of time. Kasi up to now, never pa sila naghiwalay nag ganoong katagal at ganoong kalayo.

I immediately thought na, of course, Joe can just follow Luch there. He has all the resources since he's a doctor. He can just drop by there anytime he wanted to.

Going back to my situation…

Ayun nga. Hindi ko alam kung ano nga dapat kong maramdaman. Hindi naman ako mayaman para makapunta ng India at samahan sya doon. Masaya ako para sa kanya na baka dumating ang opportunity na iyon kay Luch pero at the same time, hindi ko din maiwasan na malungkot sa idea na he might be away for six months.

Matagal iyon para sa akin. I can't even imagine living a whole week without him. I am attached to Luch in so many ways.

Ayoko malungkot. Sinasabi ng isip ko na maganda ito para kay Luch pero sinasabi ng puso ko na ayaw ko syang umalis. Nahihirapan ako.

At naiiyak na ako ngayon.

Either this November or December, malalaman na namin kung siya nga ang ipapadala sa India. Makakabili na daw siya ng magandang kotse, isa sa kanyang mga long term goal.

Ayokong malungkot. Kailangan nga masaya ako sa balitang iyon. Siguro, ang magagawa ko na lang ay maging isang mas mabuting kasintahan kay Luch. And will just wait for him to come home. Anticipating the time he'll be back.

Ayoko magsulat ng mga ganito. Mahirap eh.

At some point in our lives, we have to choose things that will be better for us in the long run. There will come a point that we'll have to make sacrifices because there will always be something in return that will be better if not best.

Sa pagkakataong ito, ang alam kong mas kailangan namin ay oras at panahon sa isa't-isa. Love will always be there and never forgotten, never lost. But time is one of the intangible things that can never be brought back. Time spent with loved ones.

Come what may Luch pero alam kong alam mo na nandito lang ako. Hihintayin ka kung sakaling aalis ka. At kung ako nga ay maghihitay, bibilangin ko ang mga araw hanggang ikaw ay bumalik. Lalo akong magpapa-pogi at magpapaganda ng katawan. Hehehe. Mag-aaral akong mabuti. Hahanap ako ng trabaho na maipagmamalaki ko. Hindi ako gagawa ng kalokohan. Wala akong gagawin na makakasakit sa ating dalawa. Mahal kita. Mas minamahal kita sa bawat araw na dumadaan.



Nalulungkot lang ako sa sinusulat ko. Ayoko na nga. Dito na muna.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Stenar

Napansin ko lang. Napapadalas na ang aming pag-aaway. Parang kahit na maliliit na bagay, napag-aawayan namin.

People who are in relationships should learn how to change and grow with each other. Hindi ibig sabihin na kapag nakaugalian mo nang gawin yun, hindi ka na kailangan magbago. If you already know na ikaw ay may isang katangian na hindi kanais-nais, that should mean that you should adjust and try to change for the better, for you and your partner.

If he wants you to change your bad habits, so should he.

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Nakakainis lang.

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If you're mad over something, don't use other people to be your emotional dumpsite. I understand that you need someone to talk to. And that should be me you should be talking to. I know that you're stressed out already pero huwag mo naman ibuhos ang iba mong galit sa akin.

If I give my opinion, I only mean to give you good advice. I'm not going to insist that you follow that, if you don't want to. 

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Sometimes, I just want you to think fairly. I want you to be fair. We all think very differently from one another but please be fair, even with Joe.

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Kung kinakausap kita ng mahinahon at kung ako man ay nagtanong, ang intensyon ko lang ay malaman ang iyong sagot. If you feel like I'm interrogating you, don't. Reply in the same tone and manner if you have something to say. I get hurt easily and you know that. What's the point of interrogating you if I already know the answer, right?

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That's the thing with me. I get hurt but then I easily let it pass. Why should I bother myself with so much negativity. I hate that I love you too much that I can't even hate you for a long time.

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If we fight, I want you to talk to me and not give me the cold treatment and treat me like I'm invisible. As much as possible, I want it resolved right away.
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You know that I detest some of the things that you do. 
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Mabilis ako magselos. Sa ibang mga ginagawa mo. Alam kong alam mo yan.
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I can forgive, but I never forget. Never. I can forget the details but never the emotions.
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Naging masyado na tayong naging komportable sa isa't-isa.
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If I wrote something like this, it's because I want to tell you that I love you. And that I'm not perfect and I'm flawed as any human being living on Earth. I want us to grow together. I want us to change for the better. I'm trying to do my part. Tell me that you're doing yours too.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

födelsedag och årsdag



How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height



Masaya ang aking munting kaarawan. Hindi ko ma-explain kung ano ang nararamdaman ko, pero I'm very sure na it's all because I'm still madly in love with this guy. Matindi pa din ang crush ko sa kanya. Ewan ko ba. Yung tipong kapag lumingon sya, tapos bigla kang ngingitian, kikiligin ka bigla tapos mararamdaman mong nagba-blush ka? Hehehe.



My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.



Throughout the whole year na naging kami, I can honestly say that I have changed, maybe a lot or maybe a few lang. I dunno. My experiences with him will always be priceless. I would never change anything that happened in the past kasi I know that those things only made me more mature, made us stronger and helped me become more as an individual.





I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.



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I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.



I will always make you feel that I love you. I will never get tired of loving you, even up to the time I stopped breathing. Even up to the time heart stopped beating. People has always been looking for their other half since Zeus split people into two. At this point, I am very proud to say that I have found another soul, a soul I consider to be mine. My soulmate.


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I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.




My literature professor told us in a lecture that lovers are the only people legally allowed to break their promises. I remember the examples he gave us.


"Class, if someone brakes up with you, don't remind them that they told you that they will never leave you. We all know, during that time, that person really loved you. What they said that time was real and genuine. Never question that."


Promises were made and even if we may break promises in the future, I will never have regrets. I will be bitter and will leave with a heavy heart. 


But I promise Bebeboy, my love will still be the same as the day  we first met and fell in love. And this is true. Walang kokontra. Uupakan ko ang kokontra.


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I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,—I love thee with the breath,




I am looking forward for the next years to come. I am excited for the outcome of this journey with you.


I remember last night, you told me that the only thing that would keep us apart will be death. I answered you that in my religion, if you really love somebody, you can be sealed and never be parted, even by death.


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My birthday was really simple. We just ate in one of my favorite restaurants, we sang karaoke songs and we also did arcade games. Yep. I'm 22 now. But it's so nice to feel very young and alive. My birthday went really well. More than what I expected it to be.






I love you Luch! One year na tayo! :P




Smiles, tears, of all my life!—and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

- Sonnets from the Portuguese
Sonnet 43

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Vår Första Årsdagen

A few days from now, we'll be having our first anniversary. To tell you honestly, I didn't know that we'll last or even reach a year. We laughed. We cried. We had fun. Thought about our future. Held hands while sleeping. I sniffed your armpits. You smelled my morning breath. We're in love.


A few days from now, it's our anniversary. Luch, I love you with my whole soul. I breath because of you. I overcome obstacles because you inspire me to. This Shakespearean poem is for you. For us. One of the poems that best explains the power of love, and what it can do to people.


I read this sonnet to us, Bebeboy.


Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. 


There is no reason why people who are in love shouldn't be together. I'm in love with you. I would always stay for you. I am yours.


Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,


You always loved me for who I am. You whispered you loved my flaws for they make me unique. Someone special. Someone that's only yours.

Or bends with the remover to remove:


You love for who I can be. You're there for my failures, waiting to put me back on track. You love me for my achievements, simple or great. You love me even if I hurt you at times.

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark 
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;


You're my very own pillar. Strong and beautiful. We're still together though we had very rough times. We're still together even though at times we can't stand each other. We fight. But our hearts grow stronger as we surpass each problem. Each mistake. We learn. We grow.

It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.


You guide me. You inspire me. You carry me to places I never even imagined I could. I was myself. You teach me how I should act. How a man should act and always making me realize that I'm no longer a kid. We change for the better.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks 
Within his bending sickle's compass come:


This is also my 22nd birthday. And I've grown older. My youth is passing. But if this means growing old with you, I couldn't wait to have wrinkles. I'm now bidding farewell to my youth because I know you will always love me. Yes, I know.

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, 
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.


I'll never get used to looking at you. Specially when you smile. May crush pa din ako sayo hanggang ngayon and I'm not afraid to admit that. I know we'll do everything to keep this flame burning. Mahal na mahal kita.

   If this be error and upon me proved,
   I never writ, nor no man ever loved. 


And if Shakespeare be wrong about these thought of love, then he never wrote anything. And no person ever truly loved somebody.






I truly am in love with you. At hindi ako magsasawang sabihin sayo yan. Happy anniversary. I can't wait for the next anniversaries to come.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Fläsk Och Bönor

Yummy lang talaga. Hahaha!

If you've been reading some of my posts in the past, then I think you'll know who this guy is.


















Paki-pass nga ang EXTRA RICE please! Isang kaldero na!

Sunday, October 2, 2011

PAK!

The model in that blog has another TVC coming up! This time, I'm with the ladies. Tama. Kasama ko sina Erich, Angelica at Gretchen sa commercial. Ang bongga diba? Achieve na achieve!

5:30am
Nang mga oras na ito, naghihilik pa ako sa aking kama. Ang galing diba? Parang hindi ako excited sa shoot na ito. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi naman talaga ako excited sa shoot eh. Ewan ko ba. Dahil yata sa antok. Ang sarap kasi matulog kasi malamig.

5:45am
Snooze muna yung alarm clock. 5 minutes, bangon na ako sa bed.

6:15am
Bumangon na ako sa kama at inunang ayusin ang mga shoes and damit ko na dadalin for our shoot.

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Buti na lang at sa Standard Chartered Building lang kami nag-shoot. Along Ayala Ave. lang. Madali puntahan. Kasi naman weekend iyon. At kapag weekend, ako ay nasa Cavite.

By the way, ang call time namin ay 6:30am. Hehehe.
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6:30am
Naliligo pa ako. Ang lamig. Sarap matulog ulit.

7:00am
Nakabihis na ako. Last minute touch up bago umalis ng bahay. Unfortunately, it was a Sunday kaya hindi ako mahahatid ng Dad ko papunta sa shoot. Ang laki ng bag na dala ko.

7:30am
Nasa highway pa din ako papuntang Makati. Okay lang. Mabilis naman ang travel eh.

8:30am
Nakarating ako ng matiwasay sa shoot. Dami pogi. Hehehe.

8:31am
Breakfast! (Masarap ang food sa mga shoots. Promise.) Nakipagkilala din ako sa ibang mga talents and ibang managers and agencies doon. Para naman ma-book ulit ako sa ibang job naman. Dami din pogi. Hehehe. Pero syempre, behave ako dun. Discreet dapat. LOL.

9:30am
Dumating na si Ate para sa aking make-up and clothes. Make-up artist din sya sa "Nasaan si Elissa?" so tinanong ko naman sya kung nasaan ba talaga si Elissa. Ayaw nya sabihin. Para daw may thrill. Sabi ko kay ate, tuwad sya para mas may thrill. Natigilan syan. Hehehe. (Syempre joke lang yun. Hindi ko naman tinanong kung nasaan si Elissa eh. Pero willing syang tumuwad.)

10:55am
Dumating si Gretchen Barretto. Hong gondo gondo nomon nong boboong yon! She's very poised and elegant. Mukhang Barbie. Complete with a nose job. May pagka-bratty and air of slight arrogance. I dunno. Siguro masakit lang ang paa nya sa kanyang 6-inch Louboutins. (Yaya! Water! Kuya! Payong! Wait! Wag muna mag-shoot! Hinangin hair ko!)

1:00pm
Natapos ang scene ni Greta. Lunch muna. At ako ay wala pa ding ginagawa. The good thing with commercials is that you get paid to wait, paid to eat delicious food and do very minimal tasks. May make-up ka pang kasama!

3:00pm
Mirienda naman daw. Kain na naman ako. Hehe.

3:30pm
May nagdala ng Mustang sa set. Prop daw para sa isang scene. Nice. Ganda lang. I was appreciating how beautiful the car was nang may na-feel ako.

Apir apir apir...

Could it be?

Hindi na uso yan...

For real?!?!

Wisik wisik na lang...

Parating na sya!

Masdan mo ang beauty ko!

Sya na nga!

Tataas ang kilay mo!

Tumaas nga ang kilay ko. Umabot sa batok ko.

Si Stephanie Achiever. Si Angelica Panganiban. Nakakatunaw ang ka-cute-an nya. She looks very charming and angelic. Yummy din! Parang si Miss Chuni lang. Choz.

4:48pm
Nag-start kami mag-shoot along with Angelica. Ang ganda nya talaga. Sigh. Hindi ako maka-get-over. Ganda ng balat. Sarap lang. Hindi ko nga lang maiwasang hindi mapangiti kasi sa tuwing nakikita ko sya, lagi ko syang nai-imagine na nag-a-apir-apir-wisik-wisik song. Hehe.

Hulaan nyo kung ano ang suot ko at kung ano ang ginawa ko dun ha! (Hint: Hindi ako naka-heels.)

6:45pm
Dinner na! Kapagod ang shoot. Paulit-ulit. Alam ko na naman kung ano ang ginagawa sa mga shoot eh pero nakakapagod pa din talaga.

7:00pm
Tulog!

7:36pm
Dumating si Erich! Mas masaya sana ako kung kasama nya si Enchong pero wala eh. Pero ang ganda pala ni Erich sa personal. Blonde na sya sa shoot eh. The color really fits her well. It goes well with her skin color.

Onwards....
Wala na akong ginawa. Ang tagal ng hinintay ko.

Tumigil ang pagre-reklamo ko nung dumating si Angel Aquino! Isa sya sa ultimate crush ko ever since I thought I was still straight. Ang ganda talaga ng babaeng iyon.

Pero mas natahimik ako nang dumating si Derek Ramsey sa set! HHWW with Angelica. Gwapo. Ulam. Nagutom ako. Kumuha ako ng extra rice. Isang balde. Para sa mga nagtatanong dyan, yes. Totoo. Matambok nga. Hihihi.

Guess what? Natapos ang shoot ng 3:00am. I felt so dirty nga eh. Gusto ko maghilamos pero dahil sa sobrang pagod, the moment na makita ko ang kama ko, bumagsak na lang ako at pagkagising ko, umaga na. By 9am kasi, may pasok na ako.

I slept for almost 2 hours lang. Hindi kinaya ng mata ko ang puyat. Ang sakit ng mata ko. Ang liwanag pa ng araw.

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P.S.
Malapit na ang anniversary namin ni Luch. Malapit na din ang birthday ko. Actually same day yun eh. Regalo ko ha! I'll be expecting! :P

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Passera

I heard this song when I was just a froshie (yes, we have a different term for freshmen) in DLSU. My hot Philosophy professor made us listen to this song to think or ponder about the life and our existence.


Warning. This song might send chills down your spine. You might notice yourself tearing up a bit. The lyrics are very powerful, I must say. Too powerful for some, maybe.


Oh well. Just listen to the song.







I died in a car crash two days ago
Was unrecognizable
When they pulled me from the gears
No one's fault, no one's bottle
No one's teenage pride or throttle
Our innocence is all the worse for fears
The other walked away alive
Arms wrapped now around his wife

My lover sits, the silent eye
In a hurricane of warmth and word
My mother trembles with the sobs
Whose absence seems absurd
My sister shouts to let her see
Through the cloud of crowd surrounding me
My colleagues call for silence in my name

I died in a car crash three months ago
They burned me until I glowed
And crumbled to a fine gray sand
Now I am nothing, everywhere
Several breaths of strangers' air
And all thoughts ever written in my hand
They plant my tree out in the yard
It grows but takes the winter hard

My lover puts a knife to wrist
Says tomorrow comes, hold on a while
My mother tosses in the sheets
And dreams me holding my own child
My sister plays our homemade tapes
Laughs as tears stream down her face
My office door now bears a different name

I died in a car crash four years ago
My tree drinks melted snow
Just eight feet tall a pale and fragile thing
Bee stings beaches bright vacations
Sunburnt high-school graduations
A sparrow healing from a broken wing
This year a glimpse of second chances
Tiny apples on my tree's branches

My lover hears the open wind
And crawls blinking into the sun
My mother leafs through photographs
And thinks "yes she was a lovely one"
My sister can't decide her truth
Asks aloud what I might do
In a conference hall my brief efforts engraved

I died in a car crash
A lifetime ago it seems
Been a decade or two or three
They've just release a new design
Bars and bags front and behind
My fate now an impossibility
Safely packaged hurtling down
The highway hardly make a sound

My lover very much alive
Arms wrapped now around his wife

Friday, September 9, 2011

HET

Gym. Oo. Nung August pa. Nagwo-work-out na kasi ako. Kelangan ko na maging hot. Para sa aking nalalapit na kaarawan sa susunod na buwan. Siguro, kung matutupad nga, eto na yata ang pinakamagandang regalo ko sa sarili ko. Meron na naman kasi akong gwapong mukha, with cheekbones and jawline to match (ang saya magbuhat ng sariling bangko!), kulang na lang ay ang isang "hot-bangin-bod" para naman maglaway na ng tuluyan sa akin si Luch. Hehehe.

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Para sa inyong kaalaman, ako ay lumaking mataba. Nung preschool and elementary, sikat ako sa school kasi bukod sa lagi akong may dalang pasalubong na Big Breakfast (c/o Mcdo) for my teachers at donation na electric fan (c/o Mama), ako ay cute at mabilog. Mukha akong siopao. Kulang na lang may dot na red or yellow sa noo ko, complete na.

Naging "medyo" fit ako nung grade 6 up to 1st year highschool ko kasi I took karate lessons pero after that, I quit na din. Hindi keri ng schedule ko. Joke lang. Hindi ko lang kasi gusto yung karate.

So after that, nagsimula na akong lumaki. Horizontally and vertically. Ang saklap lang. Ang taba ko. At my biggest, I had a waistline of 40 inches and that was during my Junior Prom. Ewwwnesss.

But then something happened. A miracle. At hindi Coat Saver (corny). The weight was coming off without me doing anything. My appetite was still the same. Pang-contruction worker/pedicab driver/kargador sa pier ang sikmura ko. And this continued up to college. Naiinggit ang mga friends ko nga sa akin eh. Hehehe.

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This time, I think I was too thin na. I need to gain, not fat, but muscles. Yes. At dahil dyan, I go to the gym regularly na. Five times a week. Haggard mode lang. Pero so far, I can feel and see the results. I can feel that my arms and chest are more firm. My "baby fats" are melting away. My legs feel more toned. My butt looks lifted! BUT I still have tons of work to do. First month ko pa lang naman eh.

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ANG MGA CRUSH KO AY NAKITA KO NA NG MALAPITAN TALAGA! POTEK NAMAN! ULAM! Next time magbabaon ako ng kanin para kapag may lalabas ng locker room, sabay subo ako ng rice! Yummmeeehhhh!

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Ito ang list ng mga crush ko sa gym (a.k.a. My Inspirations)

Hideo Muraoka


Kim Gantioqui


Ivan Dorschner



Akihiro Sato


Benjamin Tang

At syempre ang ultimate crush ko sa lahat, ang aking Bebeboy, na sobrang hot and sexy (aaaayyyyyiiiieeee!) si Luch! Sayang pero hindi ko pwede ipakita ang picture nya dito so ito na lang. Ang picture ni Luch Zanirato. Hehehe.

*** I got an email from the ULTIMATE CRUSH to remove the picture. His wish is my command. Anything for my Luch. Hihihi. And yes kinikilig pa din ako sa email nya. Hahaha. (Ang loser ko hahaha) ***

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Alam kong madami pa akong kakaining bigas at iinuming protein shakes pero ka-career-in ko na ito. I have never been called the "hot guy" before. Konting tiis lang naman eh. And I've never felt so alive. Iba talaga kapag nag-e-exercise, lalo na kung ganyan ang makikita mo sa gym. Hahaha.

Cheers to a healthier life!

Humanda kayo!

Sa mga nang-api sa akin! Maghihiganti na ako!

Hindi na ako ang nakilala nyong Buttman!

Hindi na ako isang lollipop!

On my 22nd birthday, this coming October....

I

WILL

BE

HOT!





TSSSSSSSSSS...

Friday, September 2, 2011

Grattis på födelsedagen!

Hindi ko alam ang ireregalo ko sa birthday ni Bebeboy. Nakaka-stress lang. I wanted something "perfect" to give him. Something that he can use. Something that he can wear. Something that will remind him of me. Something not that expensive (yung tipong presyong estudyante lang. Haha.). Pero something that's not cheap either. Hhhhmmmm. Something that I think he will appreciate.

Oh well.

Nahirapan lang ako.

Pero I thought of making something for him na lang. Para medyo personalized. And magagamit nya din. And pinaghirapan ko. Something that is unique. Yung tipong sya lang ang may ganoon sa buong universe.

Naghalungkat ako ng mga art materials sa bahay namin at dumeretso ako sa kwarto ko. (Ang dami ko palang art materials na hindi na ginagamit. Sayang lang. Like oil pastels, oil paint, chalk pastels, color pencils, watercolor pencils, acrilic paints, poster paints, aqua gel pastels, charcoal pencils, crayons, douche paint and so forth. Nakakahilo lang. Sayang. Yung iba may tag price pa. Oh well. Ayusin ko na lang sila next time.)

I was thinking. I'm very good when it comes to using oil paint, color pencils and chalk and oil pastels. So igagawa ko ba sya ng portrait? Hhhmmm. Saan nya naman kaya ide-display?

So change of plans. Igagawa ko na lang sya ng personalized gift certificates. Bongga! Personalized, unique at magagamit!

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Up to this moment, hindi ko pa din tapos gawin yung mga gift certificates. At tapos na ang kanyang birthday. Sigh. Sabi ko na lang sa kanya, ginagawa ko pa. At tsaka hindi pa naman tapos ang taon eh. (Ang lame ng excuse ko. Sigh.) I remember nung birthday ko last year, pinaghanda nya ako IN THEIR HOUSE WITH HIS FAMILY and RELATIVES. Most important of all, naging kami on my birthday. How can I top that?

He's 31 years old na so I decided that I will give him 31 gift certificates. Syempre, nontransferable yung mga yun. At hindi din convertible to cash. Hehe. Eto ang nasa list ko.

1. 1 home cooked meal (choose between breakfast, lunch or dinner) (para mapractice na din ako magluto)
2. dinner for two on any restaurant you want to eat (mahilig kasi ako kumain)
3. 1 hour full body massage (since alam kong palagi syang pagod sa work)
4. 1 hour full body massage
5. 30 minute foot and leg massage (dahil gusto ko)
6. 30 minute foot and leg massage
7. 1 facial using my St. Ives and L’Oreal kit ("kikoy" din naman kasi ako. LOL)
8. 1 pasta meal of your choice
9. 5 minute French kiss
10. 10 minute blowjob (Hihihi!)
11. karaoke night
12. sing a song of your choice
13. 1 sweet and warm hug
14. coffee or hot chocolate
15. cuddling for 20 minutes
16. get a makeover day
17. 30 minute arm and hand massage
18. 30 minute arm and hand massage
19. 10 minute handjob (Hehehe)
20. sex! (PAK!)
21. 3 kinds of desserts
22. 1 movie night for two
23. 2 baked goodies
24. shower together
25. out of town trip (pag-iipunan ko muna ito syempre)
26. a dance (Bahala na kung anong dance!)
27. photoshoot together
28. play arcade games
29 to 31 anything (para naman may choice din sya)

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I told him na naghahanap ako ng gift na pwede kong ibigay ko sa kanya.

Eto ang sagot nya.

"Alam mo boink, hindi naman ako more sa material gifts. Mas ma-a-appreciate kung ang gift mo sa akin ay magiging successful ka, yung ipa-prioritize mo yung pag-aaral mo, limited na ang pagiging-isip bata mo, everyday ka magi-gym..."

"Weh..."

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I'll do anything for this guy. Mahal na mahal kita Luch. Sobra. Happy Birthday.