Wednesday, October 26, 2011

födelsedag och årsdag

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

Masaya ang aking munting kaarawan. Hindi ko ma-explain kung ano ang nararamdaman ko, pero I'm very sure na it's all because I'm still madly in love with this guy. Matindi pa din ang crush ko sa kanya. Ewan ko ba. Yung tipong kapag lumingon sya, tapos bigla kang ngingitian, kikiligin ka bigla tapos mararamdaman mong nagba-blush ka? Hehehe.

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

Throughout the whole year na naging kami, I can honestly say that I have changed, maybe a lot or maybe a few lang. I dunno. My experiences with him will always be priceless. I would never change anything that happened in the past kasi I know that those things only made me more mature, made us stronger and helped me become more as an individual.

I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.


I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I will always make you feel that I love you. I will never get tired of loving you, even up to the time I stopped breathing. Even up to the time heart stopped beating. People has always been looking for their other half since Zeus split people into two. At this point, I am very proud to say that I have found another soul, a soul I consider to be mine. My soulmate.


I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.

My literature professor told us in a lecture that lovers are the only people legally allowed to break their promises. I remember the examples he gave us.

"Class, if someone brakes up with you, don't remind them that they told you that they will never leave you. We all know, during that time, that person really loved you. What they said that time was real and genuine. Never question that."

Promises were made and even if we may break promises in the future, I will never have regrets. I will be bitter and will leave with a heavy heart. 

But I promise Bebeboy, my love will still be the same as the day  we first met and fell in love. And this is true. Walang kokontra. Uupakan ko ang kokontra.


I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,—I love thee with the breath,

I am looking forward for the next years to come. I am excited for the outcome of this journey with you.

I remember last night, you told me that the only thing that would keep us apart will be death. I answered you that in my religion, if you really love somebody, you can be sealed and never be parted, even by death.


My birthday was really simple. We just ate in one of my favorite restaurants, we sang karaoke songs and we also did arcade games. Yep. I'm 22 now. But it's so nice to feel very young and alive. My birthday went really well. More than what I expected it to be.

I love you Luch! One year na tayo! :P

Smiles, tears, of all my life!—and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

- Sonnets from the Portuguese
Sonnet 43

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Vår Första Årsdagen

A few days from now, we'll be having our first anniversary. To tell you honestly, I didn't know that we'll last or even reach a year. We laughed. We cried. We had fun. Thought about our future. Held hands while sleeping. I sniffed your armpits. You smelled my morning breath. We're in love.

A few days from now, it's our anniversary. Luch, I love you with my whole soul. I breath because of you. I overcome obstacles because you inspire me to. This Shakespearean poem is for you. For us. One of the poems that best explains the power of love, and what it can do to people.

I read this sonnet to us, Bebeboy.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. 

There is no reason why people who are in love shouldn't be together. I'm in love with you. I would always stay for you. I am yours.

Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,

You always loved me for who I am. You whispered you loved my flaws for they make me unique. Someone special. Someone that's only yours.

Or bends with the remover to remove:

You love for who I can be. You're there for my failures, waiting to put me back on track. You love me for my achievements, simple or great. You love me even if I hurt you at times.

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark 
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;

You're my very own pillar. Strong and beautiful. We're still together though we had very rough times. We're still together even though at times we can't stand each other. We fight. But our hearts grow stronger as we surpass each problem. Each mistake. We learn. We grow.

It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

You guide me. You inspire me. You carry me to places I never even imagined I could. I was myself. You teach me how I should act. How a man should act and always making me realize that I'm no longer a kid. We change for the better.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks 
Within his bending sickle's compass come:

This is also my 22nd birthday. And I've grown older. My youth is passing. But if this means growing old with you, I couldn't wait to have wrinkles. I'm now bidding farewell to my youth because I know you will always love me. Yes, I know.

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, 
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.

I'll never get used to looking at you. Specially when you smile. May crush pa din ako sayo hanggang ngayon and I'm not afraid to admit that. I know we'll do everything to keep this flame burning. Mahal na mahal kita.

   If this be error and upon me proved,
   I never writ, nor no man ever loved. 

And if Shakespeare be wrong about these thought of love, then he never wrote anything. And no person ever truly loved somebody.

I truly am in love with you. At hindi ako magsasawang sabihin sayo yan. Happy anniversary. I can't wait for the next anniversaries to come.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Fläsk Och Bönor

Yummy lang talaga. Hahaha!

If you've been reading some of my posts in the past, then I think you'll know who this guy is.

Paki-pass nga ang EXTRA RICE please! Isang kaldero na!

Sunday, October 2, 2011


The model in that blog has another TVC coming up! This time, I'm with the ladies. Tama. Kasama ko sina Erich, Angelica at Gretchen sa commercial. Ang bongga diba? Achieve na achieve!

Nang mga oras na ito, naghihilik pa ako sa aking kama. Ang galing diba? Parang hindi ako excited sa shoot na ito. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi naman talaga ako excited sa shoot eh. Ewan ko ba. Dahil yata sa antok. Ang sarap kasi matulog kasi malamig.

Snooze muna yung alarm clock. 5 minutes, bangon na ako sa bed.

Bumangon na ako sa kama at inunang ayusin ang mga shoes and damit ko na dadalin for our shoot.


Buti na lang at sa Standard Chartered Building lang kami nag-shoot. Along Ayala Ave. lang. Madali puntahan. Kasi naman weekend iyon. At kapag weekend, ako ay nasa Cavite.

By the way, ang call time namin ay 6:30am. Hehehe.

Naliligo pa ako. Ang lamig. Sarap matulog ulit.

Nakabihis na ako. Last minute touch up bago umalis ng bahay. Unfortunately, it was a Sunday kaya hindi ako mahahatid ng Dad ko papunta sa shoot. Ang laki ng bag na dala ko.

Nasa highway pa din ako papuntang Makati. Okay lang. Mabilis naman ang travel eh.

Nakarating ako ng matiwasay sa shoot. Dami pogi. Hehehe.

Breakfast! (Masarap ang food sa mga shoots. Promise.) Nakipagkilala din ako sa ibang mga talents and ibang managers and agencies doon. Para naman ma-book ulit ako sa ibang job naman. Dami din pogi. Hehehe. Pero syempre, behave ako dun. Discreet dapat. LOL.

Dumating na si Ate para sa aking make-up and clothes. Make-up artist din sya sa "Nasaan si Elissa?" so tinanong ko naman sya kung nasaan ba talaga si Elissa. Ayaw nya sabihin. Para daw may thrill. Sabi ko kay ate, tuwad sya para mas may thrill. Natigilan syan. Hehehe. (Syempre joke lang yun. Hindi ko naman tinanong kung nasaan si Elissa eh. Pero willing syang tumuwad.)

Dumating si Gretchen Barretto. Hong gondo gondo nomon nong boboong yon! She's very poised and elegant. Mukhang Barbie. Complete with a nose job. May pagka-bratty and air of slight arrogance. I dunno. Siguro masakit lang ang paa nya sa kanyang 6-inch Louboutins. (Yaya! Water! Kuya! Payong! Wait! Wag muna mag-shoot! Hinangin hair ko!)

Natapos ang scene ni Greta. Lunch muna. At ako ay wala pa ding ginagawa. The good thing with commercials is that you get paid to wait, paid to eat delicious food and do very minimal tasks. May make-up ka pang kasama!

Mirienda naman daw. Kain na naman ako. Hehe.

May nagdala ng Mustang sa set. Prop daw para sa isang scene. Nice. Ganda lang. I was appreciating how beautiful the car was nang may na-feel ako.

Apir apir apir...

Could it be?

Hindi na uso yan...

For real?!?!

Wisik wisik na lang...

Parating na sya!

Masdan mo ang beauty ko!

Sya na nga!

Tataas ang kilay mo!

Tumaas nga ang kilay ko. Umabot sa batok ko.

Si Stephanie Achiever. Si Angelica Panganiban. Nakakatunaw ang ka-cute-an nya. She looks very charming and angelic. Yummy din! Parang si Miss Chuni lang. Choz.

Nag-start kami mag-shoot along with Angelica. Ang ganda nya talaga. Sigh. Hindi ako maka-get-over. Ganda ng balat. Sarap lang. Hindi ko nga lang maiwasang hindi mapangiti kasi sa tuwing nakikita ko sya, lagi ko syang nai-imagine na nag-a-apir-apir-wisik-wisik song. Hehe.

Hulaan nyo kung ano ang suot ko at kung ano ang ginawa ko dun ha! (Hint: Hindi ako naka-heels.)

Dinner na! Kapagod ang shoot. Paulit-ulit. Alam ko na naman kung ano ang ginagawa sa mga shoot eh pero nakakapagod pa din talaga.


Dumating si Erich! Mas masaya sana ako kung kasama nya si Enchong pero wala eh. Pero ang ganda pala ni Erich sa personal. Blonde na sya sa shoot eh. The color really fits her well. It goes well with her skin color.

Wala na akong ginawa. Ang tagal ng hinintay ko.

Tumigil ang pagre-reklamo ko nung dumating si Angel Aquino! Isa sya sa ultimate crush ko ever since I thought I was still straight. Ang ganda talaga ng babaeng iyon.

Pero mas natahimik ako nang dumating si Derek Ramsey sa set! HHWW with Angelica. Gwapo. Ulam. Nagutom ako. Kumuha ako ng extra rice. Isang balde. Para sa mga nagtatanong dyan, yes. Totoo. Matambok nga. Hihihi.

Guess what? Natapos ang shoot ng 3:00am. I felt so dirty nga eh. Gusto ko maghilamos pero dahil sa sobrang pagod, the moment na makita ko ang kama ko, bumagsak na lang ako at pagkagising ko, umaga na. By 9am kasi, may pasok na ako.

I slept for almost 2 hours lang. Hindi kinaya ng mata ko ang puyat. Ang sakit ng mata ko. Ang liwanag pa ng araw.


Malapit na ang anniversary namin ni Luch. Malapit na din ang birthday ko. Actually same day yun eh. Regalo ko ha! I'll be expecting! :P